:'(
stressed out and sick.
sick and stressed out.
i havent felt this stressed since...finals. and theres still a couple of days before my midterm, but i'm seriously stressing out right now.
mostly coz i was sick this week, even though it wasnt the crazy fever kind of sick (thank God), it was serious enough to make me really weak and tired and confined to bed for quite some days, resulting in me skipping school for the 2 days in the week that i have classes.
i guess in a way i have to blame it on myself for taking on so much "tasks" and meetings per week, even though alot of them are just catch-up with people days but i havent been able to make it for alot of the meetings for the past few weeks so i dont want to do it again...and i really value these meetings, just coz i want to use the opportunity to sow seeds and encourage people.
i think perhaps im doing it all by myself and not relying on God enough, coz i'm feeling the strain...now that i feel like i have so much schoolwork to catch up on and no matter how much time i've been putting into practicing these acctg practice questions, i havent been getting any of them right. and its so wrong that i know i'm way off track.
coz i know how little i'm actually grasping and understanding the material...its mostly pure memorization that i'm counting on when im working on these problems and not really even, just randomly putting numbers together. it's when that i know that i definitely cant do the midterm properly because i dont actually know this.
and now i have...5 days more till my midterm. with tons of things to do still...
ahhhhhhhhhhhh i just wanna cry coz i'm not even feeling totally better yet but i need to force myself.
i cant even rest in peace...
Father help me.
sick and stressed out.
i havent felt this stressed since...finals. and theres still a couple of days before my midterm, but i'm seriously stressing out right now.
mostly coz i was sick this week, even though it wasnt the crazy fever kind of sick (thank God), it was serious enough to make me really weak and tired and confined to bed for quite some days, resulting in me skipping school for the 2 days in the week that i have classes.
i guess in a way i have to blame it on myself for taking on so much "tasks" and meetings per week, even though alot of them are just catch-up with people days but i havent been able to make it for alot of the meetings for the past few weeks so i dont want to do it again...and i really value these meetings, just coz i want to use the opportunity to sow seeds and encourage people.
i think perhaps im doing it all by myself and not relying on God enough, coz i'm feeling the strain...now that i feel like i have so much schoolwork to catch up on and no matter how much time i've been putting into practicing these acctg practice questions, i havent been getting any of them right. and its so wrong that i know i'm way off track.
coz i know how little i'm actually grasping and understanding the material...its mostly pure memorization that i'm counting on when im working on these problems and not really even, just randomly putting numbers together. it's when that i know that i definitely cant do the midterm properly because i dont actually know this.
and now i have...5 days more till my midterm. with tons of things to do still...
ahhhhhhhhhhhh i just wanna cry coz i'm not even feeling totally better yet but i need to force myself.
i cant even rest in peace...
Father help me.