huh?
funny... i feel like i don't belong in this room anymore... my room... my OWN room... this room i share with my roommate, who had a new "roommate" by the way...
this is the second time this has happened and again, i failed to notice it... starting off with the three of us being friends, being close, always doing things together, especially on weekends, and then before i know it, i'm left behind... it's only the two of them now, especially when i'm not around... of course, that's totally normal - when i'm not around...
but how come i'm currently here in this room, in my own bed, and all left alone... they're talking, planning their lunch together, totally ignoring me... ad it's not the normal "we're planning our meal because you're busy but it's definitely for the three of us..." no... it's the "what will we eat later? the two of us..."
and i'll be damned because i'm here right now and i'm supposed to be with you, right? and see, i'm writing this blog right beside you and you don't see because you don't care... because you guys are the roommates now... and i'm the visitor in this room...
and this is not the first time, too... for two weeks, you'd been grocery shopping together, not even bothering to invite me... a month ago, (ok, two months ago) we go shopping together, the three of us... and then, i also notice how you won't even talk at me properly anymore... always somber and uninterested and with a hint of brush off... but when she enters the room, your face just suddenly lights up, and you become happy and hyper and all that... and it makes me jealous... i'm jealous, yeah, but who wouldn't be, right? it's like a slap straight in the face, while looking at me in the eye... wow, what a term... and i'm loosing myself... or maybe just my mind...
and i need a blade because fingernails are messier...
this is the second time this has happened and again, i failed to notice it... starting off with the three of us being friends, being close, always doing things together, especially on weekends, and then before i know it, i'm left behind... it's only the two of them now, especially when i'm not around... of course, that's totally normal - when i'm not around...
but how come i'm currently here in this room, in my own bed, and all left alone... they're talking, planning their lunch together, totally ignoring me... ad it's not the normal "we're planning our meal because you're busy but it's definitely for the three of us..." no... it's the "what will we eat later? the two of us..."
and i'll be damned because i'm here right now and i'm supposed to be with you, right? and see, i'm writing this blog right beside you and you don't see because you don't care... because you guys are the roommates now... and i'm the visitor in this room...
and this is not the first time, too... for two weeks, you'd been grocery shopping together, not even bothering to invite me... a month ago, (ok, two months ago) we go shopping together, the three of us... and then, i also notice how you won't even talk at me properly anymore... always somber and uninterested and with a hint of brush off... but when she enters the room, your face just suddenly lights up, and you become happy and hyper and all that... and it makes me jealous... i'm jealous, yeah, but who wouldn't be, right? it's like a slap straight in the face, while looking at me in the eye... wow, what a term... and i'm loosing myself... or maybe just my mind...
and i need a blade because fingernails are messier...