Questions
All my life, I have always felt that I was supposed to change the world. That I was supposed to help humanity writ large. But lately, I have come to a realization that there are millions of people that I will never meet, and that I will never be able to communicate with. More importantly, my worldview is not one that many people share.
I don't know how to react to this. I love people, I really do. But I am sick and tired of being unable to make a difference. I feel like I have never helped anybody, that my life hasn't amounted to much. I know I am young and I know that I have a lot of living to do. But I just feel hopeless. I don't know what I have done to make people's lives better, and I don't know what else I can do in the future.
It seems that I could become a recluse. Somebody that doesn't speak to people and doesn't have to worry about them. But this is not an attactive option. To some minor extent, my family has seemingly adopted this framework. But I have friends that I care about, despite any disagreements we may have. I can't abandon them, and "run away" (to use a bad phrase).
But that leaves the question of what I do with this world. I don't want to think that everything is going to hell. That it is all hopeless and impossible, and that I will never have an impact/ am too different to change opinions. I just want to be happy, but I don't know how to get there. I would love to stop beleiving what I beleive. I really would. But I can't, becuase I do believe it. But I don't want it to make me miserable, and I am not sure how to balance the two.
I really wish I could just let go of this, but I want to have an impact. In short, I don't know how to deal with this world. Any advice would be appriciated, becuase I am obviously too bleeping retarded to figure it out.
I don't know how to react to this. I love people, I really do. But I am sick and tired of being unable to make a difference. I feel like I have never helped anybody, that my life hasn't amounted to much. I know I am young and I know that I have a lot of living to do. But I just feel hopeless. I don't know what I have done to make people's lives better, and I don't know what else I can do in the future.
It seems that I could become a recluse. Somebody that doesn't speak to people and doesn't have to worry about them. But this is not an attactive option. To some minor extent, my family has seemingly adopted this framework. But I have friends that I care about, despite any disagreements we may have. I can't abandon them, and "run away" (to use a bad phrase).
But that leaves the question of what I do with this world. I don't want to think that everything is going to hell. That it is all hopeless and impossible, and that I will never have an impact/ am too different to change opinions. I just want to be happy, but I don't know how to get there. I would love to stop beleiving what I beleive. I really would. But I can't, becuase I do believe it. But I don't want it to make me miserable, and I am not sure how to balance the two.
I really wish I could just let go of this, but I want to have an impact. In short, I don't know how to deal with this world. Any advice would be appriciated, becuase I am obviously too bleeping retarded to figure it out.