[Taking control]
I'm sat in such an odd position, yet it's also extremely comfortable! Strange that....
I feel a little lonely recently... I texted my mate earlier & she hasn't replied, & Ive just called her and she's not there. I spoke to my other best mate earlier, then my laptop screwed up before I had time to tell her & when I got back online she was gone. Plus, I've just had a nosey at others journals & I realise how little I still talk to tem & stuff. Thing is though, nothing's changed really, just that we're all drifting apart. Funny how things turn out as you grow up...
So yea, aside from feeling alittle lonely, I'm generally having a good life at the moment. Now I have work shifts off my case I'm startuing to think about a number of things, like getting a new job with a better wage packet, & going back to college or studying at home. You don't realise how much you miss college until it's all over. I wish I could go back to Year 11 & relive it again, making all the right choices along the way. Sadly I don't think a certain Time Lord could grant my wish =(
I'd like to study journalism, but I need to look into whether or not there are seperate journalism courses that I can apply for & get straight into a Uni, or whether I have to go back to college. I need to find out if I do have to go back to college, whether there is a specific journalism course, or whether I have to take a load of other subjects. Maybe there's a course, but I need other A Levels too. It's all so confusing.
There's also a home tutoring course, but I'd need to discipline myself with that & after a day at work I don't think I could be bothered. However, I need to make it work, I need to sort my life out & fast, else I never will.
I have tomorrow off work, so I think I'm going to actually kick my arse in gear. I'm so sick of just telling myself & others my plans & not actually going through with them. So, tomorrow morning, if my friend has still not contacted me, I shall takeit upon myself to clean my room, sort my crap out & research my career. Then, in the afternoon, I shall see my other friend [especially as I desperately need to buy some shampoo & return some stuff] & have a good old catch up. It's time to take action!
I feel a little lonely recently... I texted my mate earlier & she hasn't replied, & Ive just called her and she's not there. I spoke to my other best mate earlier, then my laptop screwed up before I had time to tell her & when I got back online she was gone. Plus, I've just had a nosey at others journals & I realise how little I still talk to tem & stuff. Thing is though, nothing's changed really, just that we're all drifting apart. Funny how things turn out as you grow up...
So yea, aside from feeling alittle lonely, I'm generally having a good life at the moment. Now I have work shifts off my case I'm startuing to think about a number of things, like getting a new job with a better wage packet, & going back to college or studying at home. You don't realise how much you miss college until it's all over. I wish I could go back to Year 11 & relive it again, making all the right choices along the way. Sadly I don't think a certain Time Lord could grant my wish =(
I'd like to study journalism, but I need to look into whether or not there are seperate journalism courses that I can apply for & get straight into a Uni, or whether I have to go back to college. I need to find out if I do have to go back to college, whether there is a specific journalism course, or whether I have to take a load of other subjects. Maybe there's a course, but I need other A Levels too. It's all so confusing.
There's also a home tutoring course, but I'd need to discipline myself with that & after a day at work I don't think I could be bothered. However, I need to make it work, I need to sort my life out & fast, else I never will.
I have tomorrow off work, so I think I'm going to actually kick my arse in gear. I'm so sick of just telling myself & others my plans & not actually going through with them. So, tomorrow morning, if my friend has still not contacted me, I shall takeit upon myself to clean my room, sort my crap out & research my career. Then, in the afternoon, I shall see my other friend [especially as I desperately need to buy some shampoo & return some stuff] & have a good old catch up. It's time to take action!