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I guess everything is good except for Rich obviously. So aside from finding out about him today and feeling totally guilty because I hadn't really been hanging out with Ryan lately and he probably could have used me and I was too busy.
But I guess, I'm HOPING that the SS-Matt drama is over and we can all coexist peacefully. I just don't want any drama this summer.
And I think things need to change, I'm not gonna be like I was last semester. I'm gonna be more reserved I think. Sometimes I don't really think about what I say and I need to work on that. I also need to stop being so scared about relationships with people- friends and otherwise. Matt says the reason I don't open up to people is becase I'm scared (which is true) and the reason I have commitment problems is because of Mike (which is definitly true). So I guess I should work on these. It's hard though, especially when I've been hurt so many times just in the last semester by a lot of people.
I'm also very very impatient. And don't listen. Ever. These really need to be worked on. And I'm kinda hoping a certain person will be able to help work on all of these. Because this is something that I really want a chance to have, and I am going to need to work on all of it if I am going to get it. And I always get what I want. No matter what. whahahahaha!
Can't wait for tomorrow! Shopping with SS and Rachacha!!!! Good times... hopefully!
RIP Rich Watt 5.16.04