whats wrong with me?
hey, how do you all deal with party invitations and the like. I dont want to feel like the one left out, but I really dont think I could handle it at a party. A guy at my job throws parties often I heard, and when I found this out I sort of felt left out. They told me that it was late and didnt have everyones number, but would have called me. Anyways this time he invites me to a party at his house.... and I am just too scared to go. My sisters like, "I cant believe you get invited to a party and you dont even go." But I dont know what to do. For other people its just so easy. It shouldn't be this hard, but for me it is. I wish there were people that understood. I wish I had a friend with anxiety and be able to open up completely and be understood, ditch all the social interactions together and not have to feel completely alone. Why does something so simple like going out and meeting people make me so terrified? I just keep telling myself, "you dont have to go," to make myself feel better. I just need to accept that its not me, no matter how much inside I desire to be the complete opposite. So, I sit at home alone, by myself...with somewhere I can go. Well, thats somewhat a change. heh.