It has been forever since I have written on this stupid thing. But I know that know one reads it...because there are only 2 people in my life that know I have this. Today was a bad day. $45 in excess fees from transfeering money...$48 for application fee for an apartment I decide we don't want 2 hours later...people constantly asking me about my ( Read more... )

My spirit is broken-can it be fixed, probably ( Read more... )

2 days later ( Read more... )

Too many conversations on the phone....too many questions that make me think....why are they asking? What are they really asking? Focus...focus...focus. Do we ever know what the right thing is? Do we ever know what choice is the one we are suppose to make? How much is too much?

When do I get to sit at a red light?

Sunshine
outside
warmth
tanned feet

library
books
study
indoors

Can I have both? Or does one out rule the other?
I need to finish...I need it to be August

It is late. I can't tell what I feel at the moment. giving...lots of giving, and most of the time something is returned, but somedays I need a little extra back, somedays I need the extra and it isn't given. People say they don't give to receive but I think they are just lying, people give to receive. Receive a feeling from within themself, receive ( Read more... )

I am home for Easter. I am home to do chores. No one is hear with me...I have been left a list ( Read more... )

The wheels just keep on turnin ( Read more... )

I am tired...well maybe just exhausted...physically, emotionally, mentally. And yet I am happy. Happier than I have been in a very very long time. It is time for things to slow down. It is time for me just to enjoy. No more running, no more pleasing, no more nothing...just me. I am too the point where if you don't like me, fine. I have enough ( Read more... )

Two hours....two hours of feeling like I am going to throw up...or like I have been punched in the stomach...two hours of feeling that I am not doing the right thing....two hours of questioning the past year of school. I sat, listened, had fiesty remarks, while I was drilled....drilled about who I am and who I want to be....and I don't want to do ( Read more... )