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The days no longer matter, I think. It's been so long and yet no time has really passed at all. A week? Maybe more? How is that long? It feels like forever...
I don't know what I'm doing anymore. Alfons is gone. I looked everywhere, but he's just...gone. I failed him and broke my promise. He's been brainwashed or he's disappeared, or worse - he's gone home. He was sick and hurt and there was nothing I could do. I lost him like I lost Seimei.
It's just not fair. It's-- It hurts. It just reminds me why I shouldn't get close to people.
Miku's found someone though and that's good. Maybe he can keep her safe since I'm definitely not cut out for it. Soubi...things are just confusing. I miss the distance we had when I still had a cell phone. It meant I had a little time to think about all the weird things he does and he had his freedom, even a little bit. I don't know if I'm doing the right thing anymore.
If only there was someone I could talk to about this and not worry about whether they were going to turn on me later or not. Muraki-sensei helps, but the things people said about him are terrible and I still don't know whether or not to believe them. He seems nice, but there's something...off. I hate not knowing, but the longer I'm here, the less of a grasp I have on anything anymore.
...I guess that just means I'll be writing in here, then.
Seimei, what should I do...?
I don't know what I'm doing anymore. Alfons is gone. I looked everywhere, but he's just...gone. I failed him and broke my promise. He's been brainwashed or he's disappeared, or worse - he's gone home. He was sick and hurt and there was nothing I could do. I lost him like I lost Seimei.
It's just not fair. It's-- It hurts. It just reminds me why I shouldn't get close to people.
Miku's found someone though and that's good. Maybe he can keep her safe since I'm definitely not cut out for it. Soubi...things are just confusing. I miss the distance we had when I still had a cell phone. It meant I had a little time to think about all the weird things he does and he had his freedom, even a little bit. I don't know if I'm doing the right thing anymore.
If only there was someone I could talk to about this and not worry about whether they were going to turn on me later or not. Muraki-sensei helps, but the things people said about him are terrible and I still don't know whether or not to believe them. He seems nice, but there's something...off. I hate not knowing, but the longer I'm here, the less of a grasp I have on anything anymore.
...I guess that just means I'll be writing in here, then.
Seimei, what should I do...?