random babbling...just ignore me and let me get it out
i have my reason for doing things the way that i do them...oh yes there are reasons behind it...i will only make certain moves for certain people...like i did for "him" i will forever hold what we had once in my heart...it'll be locked away with all of my love...probably never to be shown again...everyone now sees why i didn't let myself get in that situation before if given the chance...it was safer without it. With no emotion you can't get hurt and thats what happened. everyone knows now how fragile i am. i let down my guard and i got broken. the new rule don't show emotion...i will however still show it to him...he figured me out and i can't lie to him. damn it...you can't lie or fool someone after that. he knows the real me inside and out whether he'll choose to admitt it or not...and obviously not. i wish that these words would some how reach him through his dreams and echo through his head...its over...i know this and i know i'm still obsessing about this...and i will for a while...it's been exactly two weeks since our second break up (yes we were dating for that one week again dispite rumor) and i still have a long way to go...before i had hope...now...not so much.