Motivation
How do I motivate myself? Is this good for me?
I was just thinking about really committing to accomplishing a TON of quilting. Then I noticed that I was using ANGER as the power behind my internal voice.Setting my chin, grinding my teeth and I would show the world. In your face. See me roar... I can feel the adrenaline enter my shoulders, curl up my brow, squint my eyes and anger my belly. I caught myself right at the precipice, of doing something to show an uninvolved world, yet in fact it is just my typical way to get attention from the parental units. I'm no longer a child, I'm an orphan, and in life my many actions and deeds didn't win their attention, focus, or love. They couldn't give it, I wasn't prominent in their own story. So it isn't healthy to come at my motivation from the anger place. This paragraph is more in depth examination than I had at the time.
Because once I caught myself and that self imposed stress I was irked and examined how much I would instead accomplish if I tried approaching it from a besotted love angle. My body calmed down and I considered myself. I have actually accomplished quite a lot of great work from this perspective as well. I just don't take time to give myself credit from a place of calm, peace and love. I don't consider soft and loving passion to be my motivation, yet I have done this.
The end results aren't going to be tallied because I've been so disregarding of my own accomplishments. I've given so much away and not recorded the work. My fire mentality states that everything is impermanent and once something is gifted upon the world it has it's own brief existence, I'm no longer involved. Yet today I wish I could recall and examine what my motivation was for each. Is my work more passionate in anger or in love?
Everyone has their art, a unique way to manipulate material, sound, taste, feeling, that they place their spirit within. When I really am involved with someone I ask to see their art, or to at least be assured that they are doing some hobby or passion. THIS is where each person goes within and takes care of themselves. It is so saddening for me to find people encompassed or swallowed by worries and work that they are not at least considering in their back of their mind some bit of art. If I were wrong then there wouldn't be billions of dollars of economy placed in hobby shops, Micheal's craft shops, the music industry, pet shops, etc. Pet shops, yes I do see that the involvement of people with their pets is also ART. Choosing to communicate with another species and deal with the limitations or energy that cannot be controlled you are changed by your actions with the pet. You are changed by your art.
At Dungeon Master the past 2 episodes have had a youth playing in this world of pretend. Many of my friends extend themselves to create this world, they offer their art of acting and it creates a world on stage and within the mind. I am doubly enjoying this child's exploration because at this time he is very plastic and is being shaped and shaping the world as well. ART. I recall watching Bill 28 years ago on the stage in Chicago at Dungeon Master. His inner child was loose and playing. Being a doctor, having patients die, people ignore their illnesses and making their lives worse, all of this is set aside. This is ART.
Our choice this past year of chasing down food trucks has been opening us to the amazing talents of cooking ART. The trucks allow amazing tastes just brief nova that also provides nourishment as well.
Back to motivation. I want to accomplish MORE. I want to do this for the sake of expression passion and letting it loose to change the world. I choose quilting because I have a heavy practical side, if nothing else this will keep the body warm. I'm working on letting go and pushing myself because I don't want to express static, self boredom. I want to ....
I was just thinking about really committing to accomplishing a TON of quilting. Then I noticed that I was using ANGER as the power behind my internal voice.Setting my chin, grinding my teeth and I would show the world. In your face. See me roar... I can feel the adrenaline enter my shoulders, curl up my brow, squint my eyes and anger my belly. I caught myself right at the precipice, of doing something to show an uninvolved world, yet in fact it is just my typical way to get attention from the parental units. I'm no longer a child, I'm an orphan, and in life my many actions and deeds didn't win their attention, focus, or love. They couldn't give it, I wasn't prominent in their own story. So it isn't healthy to come at my motivation from the anger place. This paragraph is more in depth examination than I had at the time.
Because once I caught myself and that self imposed stress I was irked and examined how much I would instead accomplish if I tried approaching it from a besotted love angle. My body calmed down and I considered myself. I have actually accomplished quite a lot of great work from this perspective as well. I just don't take time to give myself credit from a place of calm, peace and love. I don't consider soft and loving passion to be my motivation, yet I have done this.
The end results aren't going to be tallied because I've been so disregarding of my own accomplishments. I've given so much away and not recorded the work. My fire mentality states that everything is impermanent and once something is gifted upon the world it has it's own brief existence, I'm no longer involved. Yet today I wish I could recall and examine what my motivation was for each. Is my work more passionate in anger or in love?
Everyone has their art, a unique way to manipulate material, sound, taste, feeling, that they place their spirit within. When I really am involved with someone I ask to see their art, or to at least be assured that they are doing some hobby or passion. THIS is where each person goes within and takes care of themselves. It is so saddening for me to find people encompassed or swallowed by worries and work that they are not at least considering in their back of their mind some bit of art. If I were wrong then there wouldn't be billions of dollars of economy placed in hobby shops, Micheal's craft shops, the music industry, pet shops, etc. Pet shops, yes I do see that the involvement of people with their pets is also ART. Choosing to communicate with another species and deal with the limitations or energy that cannot be controlled you are changed by your actions with the pet. You are changed by your art.
At Dungeon Master the past 2 episodes have had a youth playing in this world of pretend. Many of my friends extend themselves to create this world, they offer their art of acting and it creates a world on stage and within the mind. I am doubly enjoying this child's exploration because at this time he is very plastic and is being shaped and shaping the world as well. ART. I recall watching Bill 28 years ago on the stage in Chicago at Dungeon Master. His inner child was loose and playing. Being a doctor, having patients die, people ignore their illnesses and making their lives worse, all of this is set aside. This is ART.
Our choice this past year of chasing down food trucks has been opening us to the amazing talents of cooking ART. The trucks allow amazing tastes just brief nova that also provides nourishment as well.
Back to motivation. I want to accomplish MORE. I want to do this for the sake of expression passion and letting it loose to change the world. I choose quilting because I have a heavy practical side, if nothing else this will keep the body warm. I'm working on letting go and pushing myself because I don't want to express static, self boredom. I want to ....