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y must things be so complicated y cant everyone just have that one thing they want the most??? y must this be so hard...... i dont deserve her..... and stacy seems to love her so much..and i respect that but i wont say i like it heh.. im highly jelous...and feel very in the way... i really like sarah ... a lot... theres something different about her that i just cant point out.... i cnat stop thinking about her, and cant go to sleep without seeing her right before i close my eyes, shes the first thought when i wake up. i try my damndest to be able to find a ride to go see her before rehearsal.. i think im falling in love..... it feels so right but so wrong...... her and stacy....im just a tag along thats ruining everything.... this is her choice...and i dont know wat will end up happening....but i think i will b the one to be left behind.... it will be hard but ...at least she'll be happy and stacy will be happy..which by the way she seems really freaking nice.... sarah....she's a great find... dont let me get in the way.... i dont know what to do... i know wat i should do....but its definantly NOT wat i want to do... u make me feel so happy.... and its been awhile sence ive been really happy...the whole thing with thomas... was so hard and so difficult it was so hard to be with him.... not because of him but because his parents....they even kicked him out cuz he wouldnt break up with me...do u know how hard that is to deal with??? that ur the reason for all his troubles??? his family problems are ur fault, his failing school is your fault..... it may not have only been mine but i was part in all of that....and now i might be ruining two other peoples lives.... y cant we all just be happy << i sound like a hippee(sp). just confusing thats all ...gtg.
Samantha
Samantha