so lately ive felt kinda dull. like just everything. everytime im with amanda everythings different, i feel great, happy, and like everythings fine. like im on top of the world. but when i leave her i feel like i never see her, i feel like everythings slower, and i just feel blah and depressed. and thats not me. i want to move out so bad.. but ( Read more... )

so yea not much to do .... apparently ive done something everynight so i cant do anything which really blows...i really want to see amanda. and it blows more that im not really allowed to . so i have to sneak around to even see her. it really sucks and i almost cant take it. god i like her so much but theres nothing i can do. at least we're ( Read more... )

life keeps getting harder.. i dont know wat to do anymore.. i keep wanting to do things.. but i know i wouldnt be able to go through with it.... i just cant take it anymore.. my parents hate me, neither trust me, all for something.. that really... i couldnt help... its not like im doing drugs or anything.. this is just dumb.. i really dont know wat ( Read more... )

ok so yea things are ok i guess.. whish they could be better but i cant exactly complain.... ive been working.. and this week our dance performances which is always a ton of fun. for me atleast. but uhmmm.. yea ive been hanging out with this guy a work with who likes me mark, and one of my managers cliff, there fun to hang out with lol.. but wats ( Read more... )

lifes slowly gettting better.... not neccissarily at home but life in general.. i have a job and ive worked twice and omg so far my favorite two ppl to work with are #1 deffinantly mark, hes so funny and kinda cute >.< lol.. and cliff because hes the sweetest most laid back manager ever lol. hes great.. but yea and i work on friday 6-close if ( Read more... )

so i guess im keeping this.. considering its the only thing i can get to at school.. and thats the only time ill be touching a computer because my dads a dumbass.... ok so heres wat happend.. i was talking to my friend dannika and she was upset and talking to me about how she feels about andrea... my mom told me to get off line so i went to hit the ( Read more... )

should i even keep this??? no one i know has one xcept for sarah..and i dont even talk to her anymore..and she doesnt talk to me... so really why keep this???

i got in a 5 car and a deer accident this morning on my way to pick shelly up...i was soo late to dance....but omg... it was a mess... i was crying and shit.... like ok so a truck hit a deer and swerved into a parking lot..the car behind it..slammed on its brakes... but i guess didnt have break lights....the lady infront of me and behind him.. ( Read more... )

we went to tenesee it was fun. so i cant complain.. the ride home sucked/ was cool.. it sucked cuz i didnt go to bed till 7 in the morning and we got up at 9:30 to leave...then grace was being a brat the whole ride home and wouldnt sleep.. paige got sick and threw up once.....then we were in the middle of tornadoes.. first it was just a storm..then ( Read more... )

i wrote about a whole lot in my myspace so if u want to know more its there....or ill just put it at the bottom of this one...but it was at first...upsetting when i found out sarah wasnt coming ..i wanted to get off so i could go hug her, i wish i could. the bus trip there was pretty boring as hell...we got there and i watched the kids take their ( Read more... )