Nov 30, 2005 20:49
It's slightly easier to go to school and bury myself.. hide the fact that things hurt. I'm okay its all going to be okay once i can take a break and take some time to think perhaps even do some drawing and writing that isn't school related.
I'm so sick of everything being a competition with J. Fucking get over it J... i should get over it too... i can't change it... i should get over it... i tried.
I read in the newspaper that Khairul might not hav died. The docter's asked his uncle to pay a deposit of rm5000 before treating him, so he lay there bleeding, doctors insisting that the deposit paid as the wounds weren't serious... he died because they're such fuck ups.
Sigh... resignation that this world is never going to be close to perfect...