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hi world. first post of 2021 and so far it is going... ok, i guess haha. i am struggling to stay positive right now and i keep on spiraling into negative thoughts about other people and myself.
i'm trying to do all the best i can to feed my mind and body what it needs and sometimes that doesn't feel good enough. yoga has been keeping me from panic attacks i feel but i'm not thriving.
lately i have been feeling pretty unmotivated to work and perform at the best of my abilities. i'm not sure i get so unmotivated. sometimes i think i am depressed but i am pretty high-functioning because i dedicate time for yoga and still go to the grocery store.
so should there be a label for it? is it depression and if it is why should i label it? does me labelling it do anything to help it? i'm not too sure if it does.
i'm feeling pretty down about not getting to travel (i have the travel itch which i get every 6 months or so at the very least). i daydream of paris and europe and thinking about what my next adventure will be once i can finally do it.
i miss going camping and stuff too and just exploring. the winter is too cold for me to do those things haha. but we did go on a couple hikes these last couple of months which were great.
anyways that is all from me
whit