obsessive
it's sad how obsessive i am about the way i look and what i'm eating and when i'm working out. i am trying to think of how i can not be so obsessive but i am afraid that if i let myself relax, i will slip up and gain the weight back.
what i need to do is be happy with how i look right now and just continue to eat healthy, even if that makes that sometimes i look bloated and i don't like what i see in the mirror. plus i'll be figuring out the right combo of fiber to have in my day and that will help with bloating anyways.
i've been discovering a lot of foods that my body doesn't like and have cut them out (mainly beans and lentils).
i have been feeling low energy after work when i want to work out so i've gotta make sure i can still be vegetarian and get enough protein.
i found out that pumpkin seed powder has 20g of fiber in just two tbsp which is great, so i ordered some of that. hemp seeds have been great for protein too. i also ordered sunflower seed powder - it has 6g per 2 tbsp.
anyways, that's about it. quarantine is still hard (i realized i haven't talked a lot about it on this journal) and this is a very strange part of history that i'm witnessing. sometimes i dream of what it will be like when we get the vaccine and i can travel.
whitney