The Summer of Drama Part 1

[floridaorange]

I am so mad at the boy today. He's evidently mad at me, which makes me mad because he has nothing to be upset about. So, I'm going to give him a choice. If he doesn't call before he leaves, then I am seriously done. So, it's his decision, he leaves without calling he'll choose that our friendship is over. And if he does call....I don't even know. But I feel like he won't. So, sad that it's over. And now I have to deal with all that. But I think I was prepared for this and that it may have been what I wanted all along. And all of the events that happen in the next month will go into my self study thesis. I've already spoken to my Pysch professor, the head of the psych department Dr. Dipboye and he said that if I do an in-depth report about the subject of "The Thin Line between Love and Friendship" (which is my title) then I could possibly get it published and he will give me an A for 3 credit hours. Ah, a women's scorn. So, I will be using live journal to collect my data along the way, so that I have it readily available for my essay! I think if he found out, he may hate me. But that's a risk I'm willing to take.

Ryan is coming home tomorrow! I AM SO EXCITEDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!! Even though I hate him, I still find that part of me misses him so much.

Behind josh's back I've been talking to jason to give josh all of the crap I got him. Maybe he'll see it as a goodbye present, and not just goodbye you're going to portugal, but goodbye FOREVER. Obviously, I'm a little bit upset about it all. We shall see. Only god knows what tomorrow will bring.

And so I embark on my 6 month study.