Another Rainy Day
So today I told the boy I had feelings for him and he said, I'm one of the best friends he's ever had and he doesn't want to ruin it. He's a good kid. But it doesn't matter, because I still have feelings for him I'm not going to get over anytime soon. what a loon. lol. But I think I'll be fine. ::cries:: lol. But it's funny because I was thinking that I need to do something that will make me like all these sciene classes. I am not motivated. So, i'm going to make a blog resolution. I am hereby going to try my best to achieve all my goals for the next month.
-get A's on all my tests for the next 3 weeks.
Sounds like a plan don't you think?
I don't know if I really wanted to tell the boy, it just seemed like something that should have come next. Something that everyone was telling me to do. But now I am thinking that I didn't want to know what he wanted because it was more fun thinking it was something else. What would I do if anyone ever found this blog? lol. All I know is that I've never felt the way I feel about this boy about anyone else. So, it makes me sad that there's nothing there. but maybe in time, that will all change. Why am I so stupid? Things are not going to change. So, why is it I keep hoping they will? I need some physchilogical work. lol. or however you spell it. So, for now, I am depressed and have a headache and didn't eat all day. I was too nervous and then too frustrated, and then too depressed, and now I'm just tired I think. I like my blog. To rant and rave where no one will ever see. but knowing that if I ever needed them to. They could. So HEY FUTURE ME LOOKING AT THIS BLOG. FIX YOUR LIFE BECAUSE I GUARUNTEE IT'S STILL MESSED UP! lol.
-get A's on all my tests for the next 3 weeks.
Sounds like a plan don't you think?
I don't know if I really wanted to tell the boy, it just seemed like something that should have come next. Something that everyone was telling me to do. But now I am thinking that I didn't want to know what he wanted because it was more fun thinking it was something else. What would I do if anyone ever found this blog? lol. All I know is that I've never felt the way I feel about this boy about anyone else. So, it makes me sad that there's nothing there. but maybe in time, that will all change. Why am I so stupid? Things are not going to change. So, why is it I keep hoping they will? I need some physchilogical work. lol. or however you spell it. So, for now, I am depressed and have a headache and didn't eat all day. I was too nervous and then too frustrated, and then too depressed, and now I'm just tired I think. I like my blog. To rant and rave where no one will ever see. but knowing that if I ever needed them to. They could. So HEY FUTURE ME LOOKING AT THIS BLOG. FIX YOUR LIFE BECAUSE I GUARUNTEE IT'S STILL MESSED UP! lol.