If only I could...
If only I could really say these things to Trusha. If only.
Regardless, I am finished here. We've been finished for a while, we just didn't want to end it. I was finished before our first fight, before the banquet. I was done at amigos. I was seriously done then. That day I lost respect for you. And it was over. The first time we fought, a month ago, I didn't even cry, I wasn't upset, because it was over for a while. And this time, I was relieved in a sense. But who do you think you are, talking to me like that? I am seriously through with you treating me like crap. First of all, I'm the one who told you I was childish so you have nothing when you just repeat it. It's like i told you my name was Nadia, and then you turn around and tell me my name is Nadia, again. Not only that but you think my name should be brooke. And I could run down to city hall and change my name to Brooke, but I've been Nadia for 20 years and just because you come along, I'm not going to throw that all away. No. Despite my failures in your eyes, I believe that failure makes you stronger and you all told me that I need to work on change. So, one day I spent the entire day thinking it over and how I was going to accomplish this and realized, that I love the person I am, even though you may not. I have never, not once, ever tried to change you. EVER. And you saying that to me, shows your lack of respect and YOUR lack of maturity. And the only reason that you think I'm a child is because you treat me like one, that's in your mindset. You have your mind made up way before we hang out. Nadia is a child. And you've been that broken record for months now. Every time you say it I may blow it off to your face but it kills me inside, and I'm sick of feeling like that. You can't act like my mother...I already have one of those. You cannot possibly think that you leaving a voicemail is mature on your part. You cannot possibly think that you cutting me off when I tell you things that "you don't want to hear" is mature of you. You cannot possibly think that I'm going to come crawling back. Get off your high and mighty horse there Agashi, you are not that special. I've been through it all once, I compromised myself and I tried to fix it and made myself not the bigger person but a person who I didnt like. Rose Jerome helped me through that and she will forever have my upmost respect for it. She told me not to pretend to be anyone but myself. And anyone who doesn't show the same respect, isn't ever worth it. We grew in different ways, went down different paths. And we'll move on. And my guess is, we'll both turn out just fine.
Nice to have met you Trusha Agashi.
Regardless, I am finished here. We've been finished for a while, we just didn't want to end it. I was finished before our first fight, before the banquet. I was done at amigos. I was seriously done then. That day I lost respect for you. And it was over. The first time we fought, a month ago, I didn't even cry, I wasn't upset, because it was over for a while. And this time, I was relieved in a sense. But who do you think you are, talking to me like that? I am seriously through with you treating me like crap. First of all, I'm the one who told you I was childish so you have nothing when you just repeat it. It's like i told you my name was Nadia, and then you turn around and tell me my name is Nadia, again. Not only that but you think my name should be brooke. And I could run down to city hall and change my name to Brooke, but I've been Nadia for 20 years and just because you come along, I'm not going to throw that all away. No. Despite my failures in your eyes, I believe that failure makes you stronger and you all told me that I need to work on change. So, one day I spent the entire day thinking it over and how I was going to accomplish this and realized, that I love the person I am, even though you may not. I have never, not once, ever tried to change you. EVER. And you saying that to me, shows your lack of respect and YOUR lack of maturity. And the only reason that you think I'm a child is because you treat me like one, that's in your mindset. You have your mind made up way before we hang out. Nadia is a child. And you've been that broken record for months now. Every time you say it I may blow it off to your face but it kills me inside, and I'm sick of feeling like that. You can't act like my mother...I already have one of those. You cannot possibly think that you leaving a voicemail is mature on your part. You cannot possibly think that you cutting me off when I tell you things that "you don't want to hear" is mature of you. You cannot possibly think that I'm going to come crawling back. Get off your high and mighty horse there Agashi, you are not that special. I've been through it all once, I compromised myself and I tried to fix it and made myself not the bigger person but a person who I didnt like. Rose Jerome helped me through that and she will forever have my upmost respect for it. She told me not to pretend to be anyone but myself. And anyone who doesn't show the same respect, isn't ever worth it. We grew in different ways, went down different paths. And we'll move on. And my guess is, we'll both turn out just fine.
Nice to have met you Trusha Agashi.