Catch Up (AKA, Choke On The Length Of Nothing Happening)

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A gargantuan amount of plot has happened since my last substantial post, so this is an attempt to catch up in Reader's Digest form. To be honest, probably nothing has happened, and this all is just more of the same being repeated everywhere and anywhere, but it happened to me and around me, so it must be important, right? Most of the plot

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[rosablanca]

It was sweet of you to update us all on what's been going on in your life :) And it's a delight to be able to enjoy your style and your spirit again :)

Sorry about Janet's stepmother. It must have been as hard (probably harder) for herself as for everyone else in the family. May God rest her soul. Interesting what you said about crying people at funerals. I honestly think they/we cry for ourselves, out of the sadness and the loss that we have suffered because our relationship with that person (and therefore, all the future possibilities of joy for us derived from that) has come to an irreversible point of no return. Quite similar is, I think, the case of people who cry at the movies -I have the theory that they/we cry because we feel as if whatever's going on in the screen was happening to us -so we project ourselves on the story, and we cry out of pure selfish pity for ourselves. But that's just me, maybe :)

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Don't tell anyone, but my eyes get all juiced up when some perfect gal in the movies shows the guy what love is.

And yep, it's completely because I want it.

yeah

[joggingguy]

Breasts or certain parts of us are ugly and disgusting, but torture is beautiful. I think that's what we are saying. Is it?

The Peeping Moe page says it all: http://www.peepingmoe.com/

Long story short, the salesman asked me at least 10 times if I wanted to pay for the extended warranty. 9 times out of 10, I told him "No thank you."

Ick, I hate that. I don't put up with it anymore. When they get to attempt #3, I leave the store. I mean, if you want to argue with me and not sell me what I want, you're wasting my time. Then I write nasty letters to planetfeedback.com :-)

So this last walk, there have been a few now, Geetha walked close to me. So close, that two times her hand touched mine.

It's amazing what simply reaching over and taking her hand at such a moment will accomplish.

Re: yeah

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I was seriously thinking of just walking out and forgetting the purchase, but I told my friend that it is very convenient to have a computer store ten minutes away from my house. I think the next closest one is twenty minutes away. I made up my mind that they weren't going to ruin that for me.

I figured I let him know that how he was behaving was upsetting. I also figure that it's up to him to see that. If he does, great. If not, well, that's fine too. I don't want to involve his boss or complain to management because I'd feel really bad if he lost his job. We are all working for survival here, and we all have our bad and good days.

At the very least, maybe he'll think twice before asking that 10th time for the next guy.

Oh, and that's all it takes huh? Reach over and grab her hand? Sounds really easy! :)

[zanzara]

Oh, I sensed the Geetha energy alright.

But I still love you ;)

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Geetha energy challenges your love for me???? How come?

[svala_lj]

FWIW, there's an awesome book out called, "The Four Agreements" by Don Miguel Ruiz. It's really helpful in reframing the rude/obnoxious behaviour of others-- on that subject, Ruiz says (Not an exact quote):

Don't take ANYTHING personally. Remember that each person is acting out his or her own little play, interpreting all external events through the filter of their own experiences. People's reactions don't have anything to do with you, really-- 50 different people will react in 50 different ways to one action of yours. He, of course, says it much more eloquently than I could

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I like that advice. I think we sometimes tend to be sucked into other's problems and feel the effects of them. Especially when people use their troubles as a sole means to control or feel connected with you. That can be very draining, and it's pretty manipulative.

It's especially difficult to see that a lot of times when people lash out that they are hurting themselves.

[svala_lj]

Oh, yeah. People's actions are really all about them, that's for sure. And we really are our own harshest judges & worst enemies.

Four Agreements is a small book, but full of good stuff (maybe a little mystical in spots, but only when he brings his Toltec ancestry in). I just picked up the companion guide today, to help me work on this stuff some more. That and "The Dance of Anger" have been HUGELY helpful to me lately. Good stuff. :)

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I'll have to keep that one in mind. I have a mountain of books I have to get through though before I buy anymore. I promised myself. :)

[duriyah]

I'm so glad to see you back!! I can't tell you how much I have missed you. Many glad welcomes!!

Touching Geetha's hand = very, very good. Much mushiness and happiness.

That last one: wow, good for you!! Your friend was right. The guy wasn't acting human. And you don't owe him anything. Kudos to you for realizing it. Your energy is shifting now; you'll never be the same.

Synchronicities rock!

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The thing about never being the same is when you are aware of it, there is this period where you are limbo kindof. Or at least that's how it feels right now. All vulnerable and weary of which way the wind is going to blow you because something in has died and your not quite sure what's left to go where you aren't going.

It's freedom, but sometimes that can be so scary when you've use to not having it.

I think I'm explaining it right anyway.

[duriyah]

I know exactly what you are talking about! If you are feeling the scary limbo, you really *have* changed!

It's a scary time, a time between, when you don't really know who you are. The way you used to define or think about yourself no longer fits, and you aren't quite sure who you are or what comes next.

I think you are right to feel protective of yourself. Don't try to fill the void too quickly. It really is profound, if you think about it. It really is a grieving process, I think. I think it's important to honor that process. From my experience it hasn't taken too long to move through it; maybe a month or so. The couple or three times that has happened to me, I have found myself withdrawing and becoming reclusive for a while. Eventually I feel more like myself, only with a little more energy than before.

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You know what?

Thank you.

It's a teeny bit less scary now. :)