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I can't sleep. I have to be up in 5 hours to get ready for the funeral and I don't feel like I am anywhere close to falling asleep. I haven't been sleeping well for days. I am not ready for all this tomorrow. I have been watching my family cry for a week now and I don't know if I can sit through this whole thing with everyone around and not fall completely to pieces. It was hard enough going to church on Saturday with my family. I almost started crying in the middle of mass. I know I just have to get past tomorrow and I will be okay. At least after that I won't have to cry in front of people anymore.
I still can't believe he is gone.
I still can't believe he is gone.