Honestly, I think I am losing it. There is too much going on and I have broken down crying hysterically three times in a little over a week. I can't keep track of anything and even managed to turn in the wrong assignment for class. I don't know what to do with myself right now...

I have so much work to do for school before it is done! I don't even really know what to start on. Everything is due soon and I can't decide which would be easiest to work on. I'm starting to think that I am going to have to give up my weekends in order to get it all done. I go from reading one book to another but then when I go back to the first I ( Read more... )

Driving home tonight, the car in front of us slowed down a little bit and then went on the other side of the road to go around something. As we got closer we saw it was a dead animal. A duck. And then we saw its mate, the male, standing on the side of the road about a foot off of it just staring away from the street. I cried. It was so sad to see ( Read more... )

This weekend has been filled with friends that I don't see very often anymore. Despite all the differences between us now, it made me decide that there is nothing better than seeing them. I miss all of them being in my life and I feel like I should make more of an effort to see them. I guess that is something I have to work on.

It's that can't breathe feeling of rejection.

NKU canceled classes until noon today so I didn't have to go! And they didn't need me at work so I slept until 1:30 and then read all day. It was wonderful!

( Here are some pictures of the snow! )

Libby made me my awesome new icon!! Thank you, Libby! I can't wait for the last book ( Read more... )

Driving up my grandma's driveway tonight it hit me that my grandpa really isn't here anymore. I knew that all along but I didn't really have to directly deal with it yet. Going to their house knowing that he would not be laying in that back bedroom waiting for us to come see him was reality.

He will never be waiting there again.

My grandpa died today.
Between my cat last Wednesday and my grandpa just a week later, I feel like I'm falling apart.
And of course all I want is for my cat to be here to hug.
I feel sick so I'm gonna go to bed. Maybe for a few days even.

One of the hardest things to do is watch someone die. We all know it is coming but seeing the kindness coming from a man that would never, ever have shown this side of him otherwise is heartbreaking. Watching a son cling to his father as he can barely get words out and to then see the father pull himself up to hug his only son with the little ( Read more... )