thoughts at 0130am:

1) i alternate between being really really happy and really really sad there is no in between its like a crazy swinging pendulum ( Read more... )

i. "you decide" / "i'm okay with anything" / "up to you" / "choose for me"

today i realised that i really do not have a brain of my own
can't make my own decisions, always so easily influenced by others

ALWAYS so reliant on others always so needy always so clingy

ii.
i realised that i should just shut up
because most of the time
no one ( Read more... )

i. unschool was a BEEPing mess today i wasn't concentrating in any lessons/stomach hurted like a mf/kept dozing off/kept getting distracted by other things/kept thinking about things i didn't wanna think about. ponned lecture with bry cos i really couldn't take it and he brought me to his study spot to lepak and just talk. told him (almost)(all of ( Read more... )