#307
thoughts at 0130am:
1) i alternate between being really really happy and really really sad there is no in between its like a crazy swinging pendulum
unsure whether this ability of mine to feel so deeply is a gift or a curse
2) how do i sketch this annotated diagram when the picture you give me is so dark and grainy ugHHHHH geography
3) so stressed so stressed so stressed yet i still find time to eat. superb job
4) starting to think that maybe i'm not the only one feeling all these. maybe you feel the pain, the massively uncomfortable stomach churning heart sinking insides burning feeling when you lay your eyes on me too. could have sworn i saw you squirm. nevertheless i hope you feel better soon
5) just wanna share one of my all-time favourite poems. i've been relating to it a lot lately. guess its because i've been letting life's current take me to wherever but its high time for me to steady myself, be my own anchor and decide what I want out of this life. like they said, "i am the master of my fate, i am the captain of my soul"
//
Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate,
I am the captain of my soul.