New me
Okay so as most of you know (if anyone even reads this anymore) I quit drinking. I have also been eating a strict diet of pre prepared meals that I make of tuna, salad, small portions of crispex,fruit, nuts, yougart and the occasional m&m . Every single day of this I have endured the most intense heartburn and it's as if my body is fighting this healthy food!! Ah! I did my research and it seems that the shitty foods I've eaten are not healthy enough to provide my body with nutrients and therefore there is nothing to coat my stomach from the acid it produces. Society tells you the only solution is to take things to kill the acid but that means your body won't have an essential thing it needs to digest food. I want to do this so bad but fruit is pretty much the only healthy thing I like. And it's the worst of the worst. Any suggestions?
Another issue is my boyfriend. His claim to support me in these decisions is much stronger than his actions. He has already made comments about taking me a way and getting nice wine which I told him would be something I can't do. He doesn't seem to see how a glass of wine is an issue because he has seen me a bunch of times have a beer or a glass of wine and stop drinking. But the bottom line is I'm quitting so I don't want to cheat and I want his support more.
At work I told him I don't want to eat lunch together because he is getting taco bell and I'm eating salad and I'm going to crave it and feel weak. He suggested I get some will power so he isn't eating alone. It's just annoying that he doesn't get it . Honestly that taco is much more addictive to me than the beer. It is always much more accepted to indulge in food then in drink. So I think everyone who doesn't set limitations probably has some food addictions. I have been cooperative, I was fine with him having a couple beers at my house and kissing me-it was fine. I could have taken one whenever and chose not to.. But the food thing is much harder. Although I haven't broken my rules I still struggle. I need to break food addictions especially carbs. The thing about food is you need it to survive soo you can't just avoid it. Can you imagine quitting drinking if it took 2 beers a day for you to live but you had to stop after that? Ugh. Anyway.. I haven't eaten muxh cuz I spent lunch doing this so I'm gonna get to it.
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