New me

[fishinthewater]

Okay so as most of you know (if anyone even reads this anymore) I quit drinking. I have also been eating a strict diet of pre prepared meals that I make of tuna, salad, small portions of crispex,fruit, nuts, yougart and the occasional m&m . Every single day of this I have endured the most intense heartburn and it's as if my body is fighting this

Comments

[sugarplumm]

Have you Thought about going to an AA meeting? What you are doing is great, but it's a difficult journey to do on your own.

[fishinthewater]

I have thought about that, and I may.. but i have a problem with AA because you have to basically admit that you are helpless and its not so much my ego, but my will to try harder- I can't see myself saying that I can't do this,and I must surrender.. I also think its all to fucked up to say "Alcoholism is a disease, I need to be cured from" like you are supposed to feel bad for people- when this is something you do to yourself.. And I don't think a dependency is a disease, I think its hard to weine you off- but its possible.