[today is a pretty day.]
once i watched a documentary of what oil can do to the sea animals, birds and so on. with what happens in usa now, the images of dying, struggling birds and dead fish returned and won't leave my head. i'm weak.
my uni is fucked up. why? because:
1. the dates of our exams and then defending DON'T match with the admission dates for universities (for anyone who wants to pursue their master degree). because only after we pass all exams we are given the permission to defend. so, after all the exams results are in, we have 14 days to set up a date with our promoter. since our last major exam, PNJ, is somewhere around the 2nd week of july, we wait for the results up to two weeks, then we have two weeks to defend, it turns out that most of us will do it at the beginning of july. which is kind of late for the 1st admission (which happens at the end of june). and many universities require the grade from our thesis. it's ALL made of bullshit, seriously. i'm more and more opting for defending around september.
2. german issue. while we were enrolling, NO ONE knew we'd be made to learn GERMAN. we went there for FUCKING english. true, we had to fill in another foreign language we'd like to learn but everyone though it might be just a simple one lecture thing. but no, in the middle we learned that we'll have the license to teach german as well as english. WHAT THE? some of us has NEVER had german before and now most of what they can say is "ich wohne in", "ich komme aus", "ich bin da". so fine, for past 2.5 years german lecturers realised that and didn't push us. we had grammar, but all of us got B at the end anyway (i think i missed more than half of classes anyway). no one, either us or lecturers, took it seriously. but now comes dr JUMPEE (with reference to his surname), who wants to make a killer german exam for us. like, WHAT THE FUCK YOU LITTLE DICK. he want to include grammar (conditional sentences, relative clauses, passive voice, etc), syntax, writing, just everything. honestly said, from my group only two would pass (excluding me, i don't know a shit about german). how reasonable it is: "you can't teach english if you don't know german". if you guys didn't know that TRUTH, you're all dumb. i say, either TEACH US SERIOUSLY FROM THE START AND FINISH WITH A SERIOUS EXAM or DON'T GIVE A SHIT FROM THE START AND FINISH WITH A "DON'T-CARE" EXAMS. because not teaching us ANYTHING and then expecting us to know what we haven't been taught is a typical thing at uni retarded. well, we started to fight with it.
3. practices. my side (uni) says this, my advisor says that and now the headmaster wants to talk with me and say something even different. and in the middle - me. fed up, simply fed up.
z paroletnim opóźnieniem w końcu skończyłam "siewcę wiatru" marii lidii kossakowskiej. oczywiście słyszałam o tej książce już daaawno i, wśród ogólnego zachwytu tu i tam, chciałam ją drwać. jakiś czas temu uciekłam z pieniędzmi do empiku i tam ją wypatrzyłam. jak przeczytałam O CZYM jest, to kupiłam bez zastanowienia. niemoralne anioły? to mój temat numer jeden. tak. ale... książka bardzo mi się podobała (za mało michała!!! ZA MAŁO mojego misiaaaa!), klnące anioły i emo lucyfer - świetne. i te cholerne potencjały slashowe, trudno być fanką slashu i nie łączyć ich w parki podczas czytania. jednak... czegoś mi brakowało. nie jestem w stanie określić czego. czytam teraz jakieś czytadło, nic specjalnego (chociaż niby docenione na świecie) i idzie mi lepiej, niż siewca. siewca trzymał mnie w napięciu, rozbawiał, wzbudzał masę uczuć. akcja nie stała w miejscu, może trochę "kryminał" nie był dla mnie jasny i trudny do domyślenia się ale ja jestem okropna w te klocki. czegoś mi w siewcy brakowało. a już kompletnie dobiło mnie zakończenie. byłoby o wiele, wiele lepsze bez morału "kochajmy się, wszyscy jesteśmy braćmi" pod adresem tych z otchłani. nie wiem, nie wiem. aczkolwiek ciągle mam tą książkę pod ręką i wyszukuję michasia przeglądam ją z szaloną namiętnościa, to czuję niedosyt. może dlatego, że od mojego ulubionego tematu wszechczasów spodziewam się tylko i wyłącznie cudowności?
the book i've read is about my favourite theme. depraved angels. whenever i see white wings and their owner who doesn't look like a stereotypical angel but like one of us, i scream, yell, get excited. i think it started with my fascination with different "versions" of our religion. like jewish myths and legends (oh my god, how i love those). then came "angel sanctuary" and i was lost forever. but i've had no time nor the sources to look for movies, mangas, anime, books, comics of this theme. angels who are like us, humans. who can laugh, cry, get annoyed, bored, have sex, kill, miss someone or hate them. who can be pure or dirty, innocent or naughty. and have wings. i plan to look for more during summer, i need it. NEED IT.
angels are just my obsession. human-like angels.
ps. whoever read "tenshi no uta" by nishida higashi (highly recommended), i wonder, did chris really love his wife? i believe he did. somehow, i can easily picture that, their unique bond. and i find it beautiful. chris, my poor, lost chris. how much i adore this man~!
my uni is fucked up. why? because:
1. the dates of our exams and then defending DON'T match with the admission dates for universities (for anyone who wants to pursue their master degree). because only after we pass all exams we are given the permission to defend. so, after all the exams results are in, we have 14 days to set up a date with our promoter. since our last major exam, PNJ, is somewhere around the 2nd week of july, we wait for the results up to two weeks, then we have two weeks to defend, it turns out that most of us will do it at the beginning of july. which is kind of late for the 1st admission (which happens at the end of june). and many universities require the grade from our thesis. it's ALL made of bullshit, seriously. i'm more and more opting for defending around september.
2. german issue. while we were enrolling, NO ONE knew we'd be made to learn GERMAN. we went there for FUCKING english. true, we had to fill in another foreign language we'd like to learn but everyone though it might be just a simple one lecture thing. but no, in the middle we learned that we'll have the license to teach german as well as english. WHAT THE? some of us has NEVER had german before and now most of what they can say is "ich wohne in", "ich komme aus", "ich bin da". so fine, for past 2.5 years german lecturers realised that and didn't push us. we had grammar, but all of us got B at the end anyway (i think i missed more than half of classes anyway). no one, either us or lecturers, took it seriously. but now comes dr JUMPEE (with reference to his surname), who wants to make a killer german exam for us. like, WHAT THE FUCK YOU LITTLE DICK. he want to include grammar (conditional sentences, relative clauses, passive voice, etc), syntax, writing, just everything. honestly said, from my group only two would pass (excluding me, i don't know a shit about german). how reasonable it is: "you can't teach english if you don't know german". if you guys didn't know that TRUTH, you're all dumb. i say, either TEACH US SERIOUSLY FROM THE START AND FINISH WITH A SERIOUS EXAM or DON'T GIVE A SHIT FROM THE START AND FINISH WITH A "DON'T-CARE" EXAMS. because not teaching us ANYTHING and then expecting us to know what we haven't been taught is a typical thing at uni retarded. well, we started to fight with it.
3. practices. my side (uni) says this, my advisor says that and now the headmaster wants to talk with me and say something even different. and in the middle - me. fed up, simply fed up.
z paroletnim opóźnieniem w końcu skończyłam "siewcę wiatru" marii lidii kossakowskiej. oczywiście słyszałam o tej książce już daaawno i, wśród ogólnego zachwytu tu i tam, chciałam ją drwać. jakiś czas temu uciekłam z pieniędzmi do empiku i tam ją wypatrzyłam. jak przeczytałam O CZYM jest, to kupiłam bez zastanowienia. niemoralne anioły? to mój temat numer jeden. tak. ale... książka bardzo mi się podobała (za mało michała!!! ZA MAŁO mojego misiaaaa!), klnące anioły i emo lucyfer - świetne. i te cholerne potencjały slashowe, trudno być fanką slashu i nie łączyć ich w parki podczas czytania. jednak... czegoś mi brakowało. nie jestem w stanie określić czego. czytam teraz jakieś czytadło, nic specjalnego (chociaż niby docenione na świecie) i idzie mi lepiej, niż siewca. siewca trzymał mnie w napięciu, rozbawiał, wzbudzał masę uczuć. akcja nie stała w miejscu, może trochę "kryminał" nie był dla mnie jasny i trudny do domyślenia się ale ja jestem okropna w te klocki. czegoś mi w siewcy brakowało. a już kompletnie dobiło mnie zakończenie. byłoby o wiele, wiele lepsze bez morału "kochajmy się, wszyscy jesteśmy braćmi" pod adresem tych z otchłani. nie wiem, nie wiem. aczkolwiek ciągle mam tą książkę pod ręką i wyszukuję michasia przeglądam ją z szaloną namiętnościa, to czuję niedosyt. może dlatego, że od mojego ulubionego tematu wszechczasów spodziewam się tylko i wyłącznie cudowności?
the book i've read is about my favourite theme. depraved angels. whenever i see white wings and their owner who doesn't look like a stereotypical angel but like one of us, i scream, yell, get excited. i think it started with my fascination with different "versions" of our religion. like jewish myths and legends (oh my god, how i love those). then came "angel sanctuary" and i was lost forever. but i've had no time nor the sources to look for movies, mangas, anime, books, comics of this theme. angels who are like us, humans. who can laugh, cry, get annoyed, bored, have sex, kill, miss someone or hate them. who can be pure or dirty, innocent or naughty. and have wings. i plan to look for more during summer, i need it. NEED IT.
angels are just my obsession. human-like angels.
ps. whoever read "tenshi no uta" by nishida higashi (highly recommended), i wonder, did chris really love his wife? i believe he did. somehow, i can easily picture that, their unique bond. and i find it beautiful. chris, my poor, lost chris. how much i adore this man~!