[i just want to be happy.]

[firelle]

i am hurt how polly and hide hang out together all the time and never with me. i've never been really invited to anyone's place. just to guś'. then again, whenever we're out i always run out of money but either hide or polly pays for me. i feel bad about this, like a kept girl, yet fond because they care enough to spend money on me. and the third emotion is about how they never reach out for me if it's not a bar/club/pub hanging out yet are willing to spend the little money they have just to keep me with them.

but the hurt feeling wins.