And I Was Swept Away
When it rains it pours...
I typically don't have men knocking down my door, ever. And not to say that I do now, but it seems like whenever someone seems interested in me, even if I haven't had contact with him in years; he calls, and we fall right back into it.
We talked for a couple of hours last night. About our past, what we want, our future and we realised, we've never really had the time, there's always been some complication, to live our lives together. Maybe it's strange, maybe it's fate, but still, it's there. Undeniably it's there.
So where do we go from here? I've been debating you know, and that's further than I've ever gone when thoughts of moving across the country for him have come my way in our past. Now, I know what you might be thinking...but not our entire relationship has been apart from each other. We've spent lots of time together, but there's always something in the way. And now? What's stopping us? How many more times are we going to put ourselves through the misery of this?
I remember the last weekend we spent together, and there was so much love. He brought me roses, and told me of his sentiments and his journal entries in his leatherbound book, and his strong willed desire to not be without me.
Our conversation last night, I got answers to a lot of my questions, and he reassured me. He's gotten into this habit of asking me 'So does everything we've talked about tonight sit right with you?' It's just so awesome to have that communication with HIM. He's my heart, always has been, and I can't change that. I don't want to change that.
I love him. He's that man that I want to be with and the only man I've ever been able to see myself growing old with.
It's a tough decision. And I'm happy here. I've got my family and my friends and my gorgeous beautiful soul sister. And the music that's pulsating out of my body is at it's best and most pure. But I feel like my home is in his arms. I haven't made anything for sure yet. We're still discussing and planning and deciding and making sure that this is the best timing for everything...
I just...I wish I could describe it better.
I typically don't have men knocking down my door, ever. And not to say that I do now, but it seems like whenever someone seems interested in me, even if I haven't had contact with him in years; he calls, and we fall right back into it.
We talked for a couple of hours last night. About our past, what we want, our future and we realised, we've never really had the time, there's always been some complication, to live our lives together. Maybe it's strange, maybe it's fate, but still, it's there. Undeniably it's there.
So where do we go from here? I've been debating you know, and that's further than I've ever gone when thoughts of moving across the country for him have come my way in our past. Now, I know what you might be thinking...but not our entire relationship has been apart from each other. We've spent lots of time together, but there's always something in the way. And now? What's stopping us? How many more times are we going to put ourselves through the misery of this?
I remember the last weekend we spent together, and there was so much love. He brought me roses, and told me of his sentiments and his journal entries in his leatherbound book, and his strong willed desire to not be without me.
Our conversation last night, I got answers to a lot of my questions, and he reassured me. He's gotten into this habit of asking me 'So does everything we've talked about tonight sit right with you?' It's just so awesome to have that communication with HIM. He's my heart, always has been, and I can't change that. I don't want to change that.
I love him. He's that man that I want to be with and the only man I've ever been able to see myself growing old with.
It's a tough decision. And I'm happy here. I've got my family and my friends and my gorgeous beautiful soul sister. And the music that's pulsating out of my body is at it's best and most pure. But I feel like my home is in his arms. I haven't made anything for sure yet. We're still discussing and planning and deciding and making sure that this is the best timing for everything...
I just...I wish I could describe it better.