Half a World Away
So I've been debating on whether or not to write about this for the past 24 hours or so, but I just can't take it anymore, so write I will.
I don't think anyone really truly understands how he affects me. How he has for so many years. All the ups and downs of our relationship, and just the sound of his voice makes my heart jump, much more than it should, given the tumultous history between us.
Should I run, full speed towards or away? A lot of this cannot be answered until I talk to him again. Hopefully tonight. There are a lot of things we need to clear up and be sure of before I make any life changing decisions. What I do know, is that my love for him hasn't died, nor will it ever, as far as I can see. For as many years as we've been through this, it seems to me that eventually, it's less and less about the physicality and more about the comfortability and pure unadulterated love we have for each other.
In the interim, I'm not quite sure what to think.
The friends that have seen him and I through these many years are telling me different things. One simply says no, and the other, she tells me to follow my heart.
Any advice anyone can offer would be very appreciated. I'm quite lost right now.
I don't think anyone really truly understands how he affects me. How he has for so many years. All the ups and downs of our relationship, and just the sound of his voice makes my heart jump, much more than it should, given the tumultous history between us.
Should I run, full speed towards or away? A lot of this cannot be answered until I talk to him again. Hopefully tonight. There are a lot of things we need to clear up and be sure of before I make any life changing decisions. What I do know, is that my love for him hasn't died, nor will it ever, as far as I can see. For as many years as we've been through this, it seems to me that eventually, it's less and less about the physicality and more about the comfortability and pure unadulterated love we have for each other.
In the interim, I'm not quite sure what to think.
The friends that have seen him and I through these many years are telling me different things. One simply says no, and the other, she tells me to follow my heart.
Any advice anyone can offer would be very appreciated. I'm quite lost right now.