( Its been 74 weeks... )

I came home to what I thought was an empty house.  But I was not alone.  I  practically peed my pants.

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I know you, I walked with you
once upon a dream.
I know you, the gleam in your eyes
is so familiar a gleam
Yet I know it's true that visions
are seldom all they seem
But if I know you, I know
what you'll do
You'll love me at once
the way you did once
Upon a dream

for the first time I'm showing you me
but i wonder if thats truely the key
your voice comforts me on the line
but can things just change on a dime
i long to be your friend
but my desire for more wont end

Possibly.  THe goal tonight was to study.  We sat there and never wrote a letter on the paper.  Never read a word.  We talked.  We shared.  I was completely myself.  I was shocked.  I was proud.  I learned after all.  I in a small way lost a lot of weight on my sholder.  We closed the place up.  We saw a movie.  A friendship thats been in front of ( Read more... )

I got this tattoo for multiple reasons.  It is a symbol of where I have been and where I am going.  It represents my passage through growing up.  It is a Adinkra symbol named Sesa Woruban.  Translated to “ I change of Transform my life.”  It combines two separate adinkra symbols, the "Morning Star" which can mean a new start to the day, placed ( Read more... )

THeres something wrong when your 13 year old cousin says we need to talk and its because she wants to put you in line after the choices you have made.

Its been a week since my world started crashing.  There are moments I am doing good, moments I hurt, and moments I am dying.  In many ways I am not sure it hit  me.  Its on my mind constantly.  I keep thinking I am in Ensteins Dream and that at any moment someone will wake me up and say i was lost in the wrong world.  Logicaly I know this wont ( Read more... )

I guess this is love.  When you have been hurt by someone so much yet forgive them and understand why they had to do it.  I hate my situation.  I hate Matt.  I hate getting slapped in the face by the first person I have trusted not to.  I hate having to see it on a screen before hearing it come from his lips.  I despise that someone elses thoughts ( Read more... )

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