You tried your best and you failed miserably
The lesson is, never try.
I didn't get the job. Only I could apply for an internal position somewhere I've worked for TEN MOTHERFUCKING YEARS and not get it. Apparently I gave the wrong answers in my interview. People like me just fine until they meet me and I, y'know, open my mouth.
I honestly don't know what I'm going to do. It's been a long time since I felt this kind of all-consuming despair. My health sucks, it's become blatantly obvious to me that my career choices are A: unemployment, or B: staying in this job which sucks my will to live on a daily basis. Every time I try to do anything else or better myself, I fail, and I remember why I gave up trying.
I just wish I could drop off the face of the earth right now.
I didn't get the job. Only I could apply for an internal position somewhere I've worked for TEN MOTHERFUCKING YEARS and not get it. Apparently I gave the wrong answers in my interview. People like me just fine until they meet me and I, y'know, open my mouth.
I honestly don't know what I'm going to do. It's been a long time since I felt this kind of all-consuming despair. My health sucks, it's become blatantly obvious to me that my career choices are A: unemployment, or B: staying in this job which sucks my will to live on a daily basis. Every time I try to do anything else or better myself, I fail, and I remember why I gave up trying.
I just wish I could drop off the face of the earth right now.