i. and never will I have to answer again to anyone

When Neela is ten years old her sister Asha dares her to steal a biscuit.

It is one of the many rules in the Rasgotra household that you get one - and only one -   biscuit a day. And, like every other rule Cherita Rasgotra sets for her children, it is not to be broken under any ( Read more... )

I am nothing now and it's been so long
Since I've heard the sound, the sound of my only hope
This time I will be listening

~*~

The Wheelchair still feels unfamiliar. If only because he doesn’t want it to feel familiar, which it might if he let it (but not in any way good familiar). It’s been a while (one year, four months, two weeks, five days ( Read more... )

Title: This Was A Therapeutic Chain of Events
Fandom: ER
Pairing: Ray/Neela
CD & Song: Emergency - Pressure (Paramore)
Rating: PG-13 (maybe R, a couple of f-words)
Notes:

I think we have an emergency
If you thought I'd leave then you were wrong
‘Cause I won't stop holding on

~*~

When you wake up your head hurts. You feel like throwing up. But the fact ( Read more... )

1…We’re doing fine and it gets better every time…

That time she cleaned his room.

It was the second week of their co-habitation. His room was a private place, always had been. People in it without his permission made him nervous, kind of ticked him off. So when he walked into his room to find it perfectly spotless, he was angry. He was ( Read more... )

Title: Action, Reaction
Fandom: ER
Pairing: Ray/Neela
CD & Song: All We Know Is Falling - Pressure (Paramore)
Rating: PG
Notes:

Tell me where our time went
And if it was time well spent
Just don't let me fall asleep feeling empty again

~*~

It takes her a total of 5 days to give in to her overbearing guilt. 5 days of basically no sleep and watching late ( Read more... )

Title: This Point in Time
Fandom: ER
Pairing: Ray/Neela
CD & Song: All We Know Is Falling - Conspiracy (Paramore)
Rating: PG
Notes: Spoilers for 13x07

Where can I turn?
‘Cause I need something more
Surrounded by uncertainty, I’m so unsure
Tell me why I feel so alone
‘Cause I need to know to whom do I owe

~*~

He has a right to be pissed. He has a right ( Read more... )

Title: Matinee
Fandom: ER
Pairing: Ray/Neela
CD & Song: All We Know Is Falling - Here We Go Again (Paramore)
Rating: PG
Notes:

And here we go again
With all the things we did
And now I'm wondering just who would I have been
To be the one attached at all times to your hip
Forget the things we swore we meant

~*~

1999

When this place had gotten so ( Read more... )

Title: Down and Out
Fandom: ER
Pairing: Ray/Neela
CD & Song: All We Know Is Falling - All We Know (Paramore)
Rating: PG
Notes: Spoilers for 12x18

We tried so hard to understand, but we can't

We held the world out in our hands and you ran away

~*~

It happened so fast.

One moment she was simply ‘Neela: Roomie/Co-worker’, and the next she was ‘Neela: ( Read more... )

Title: Guilt
Fandom: ER
Pairing: Ray/Neela
CD & Song: All We Know Is Falling - Brighter (Paramore)
Rating: PG
Notes: Spoilers for 12x18

Well this is not your fault
But if I'm without you then I will feel so small

~*~
It was an accident.

She never meant for it to go this far. It was not her intention to start needing him as much as she evidently did ( Read more... )