Dec 26, 2005 02:10
why does it happen that we sometimes choose misery over compromise. why isnt discussing more the means of solving problems than is silence. is it because silence speaks volumes? are we as humans incapable of reasoning with one another? why do we get lost in our imaginations and our retrospective couldve, shouldve, wouldve's? we dont know because we dont communicate to begin with. if communication is the basis for establishing relationships (friendships, family, sexual etc) could a relationship be in harmony when lacking appropriate communication? comfortable relationships are possible with little/no/basic communication. are those authentic relationships though? when there's an unspoken "dont ask, dont tell" understanding between two, is it right for one to get upset over not knowing? and is it right to ask questions despite this unspaken 'pact'? and when the questions are not answered completely but rather raise even more questions, is it right to be upset then? if there's beauty in letting go, why are we almost never capable of doing so? is it safe to conclude we dont want to be happy? we always surrender to sinister doubt. without fail we begin to question ourselves when we comtemplate what it is we really want. if we really wanted to be happy, assuming we have absolute control over our actions, we would let go. yet, we never do. and it becomes a cycle. we get fed up. we struggle with our inner demons. we think we 'let go'. but we end up fooling ourselves into believing we can change whatever it is that's holding us back.and we recognize that we've failed ourselves once again. we feel hopeless but we've grown accustomed to our misery because of our adamant belief in our power to will ourselves to change. truth is, we can't change. if we could, we would be happy, but who really wants to be happy? happiness, like (almost) everything, is transient