For lastvoyages: Journal Entry 27 [voice+spam]

[feels_no_love]

In my stay here I have met a few people to whom I truly owe a debt of gratitude. [Soft chuckle] Now there is something I never thought that I would admit. But...it is true. At any rate, the Barge just said goodbye to two such people

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[damesuccubus]

Of course I am. Nothing is amiss.

...are you?

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[feels_no_love]

I...

I merely wished to hear from you.

[That sounds pathetic. He coughs.]

I've been losing friends and it does not feel very...good. So I check on those I have, and cherish them a bit better.

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[damesuccubus]

Yes, I heard, and I am terribly sorry about your loss. Would it help if I reminded you that they left on happy terms? They were fortunate in that way. More fortunate than most.

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[feels_no_love]

It does help, dear lady.

It is merely...I am an old beast, and very wicked. Thus I will be here for a very long time. And should there come such a time that you should surpass me and find your way free of this place...I ask only that you give me a chance to say a proper goodbye. For I would miss you.

[fanged_aleera]

No... My first teacher in this place, Giselle, she vanished with no warning.

It was a sad time of many troubles.

[feels_no_love]

It would be so for me as well if Armand left. We have our differences, but at the end of the night my life is more interesting with him in it.

[fanged_aleera]

It is best not to become so... Attached.

Learn, yes. Adore... Not so much.

Prepare, each night, that you may not see your guide. If they appear, then this is pleasant.

[feels_no_love]

I do not think I am capable yet of adoration, and if I were he would not be the one receiving it. But...

Yes, I think I must learn to be grateful for company that I still have.

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[young_idealist]

I survived.

Do you wish to talk about people leaving? There are so many ways I could answer your public musings, the variations make me dizzy.

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[feels_no_love]

No random curses? No half drownings in hair oil?

[Flat chuckle]

Armand, between you and I, I know that I am going to be a while in this place. Even willing, even leaving behind the image of this place as the Turkish Prison, I have a long way to go. Learning to let go of others gracefully when they move on is...

I need to learn it but I think I am far from that right now.

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[young_idealist]

I cannot say it was a good experience for either of us, but no one died. That is perhaps the best I can say of it.

[Armand sighs, not in exasperation, but tiredly.] You are not the only person with that problem. I don't take it well either. It is lonely being here, away from one what one is accustomed to.

I don't know if grace is ever expected. Humanity is, perhaps. It is something I would not have expected from you a month or so ago to miss someone so, someone who wasn't in your chosen court or family.

There are some absences, long grown old, that I still feel.

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[feels_no_love]

It baffles me as well. I would rather--no. I simply do not understand why, if I have..."advanced" in some way, it is so damnably painful.

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[flashy_magic]

[Hearing the commotion coming from Dracula's room, Drake ran over to see...Dracula come out, carrying a flower.] What the bloody hell was that?

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[feels_no_love]

A...loss of temper. My apologies if I startled you. [He is cradling the plant gingerly.] I need to get this in the ground....

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[flashy_magic]

"Oh. What is that? We can walk while you tell me."

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[feels_no_love]

"It was a gift from Persephone. I...dropped...the bowl it was planted in. It is time I set it free in good soil."

[voice, private because she wants to talk to *him*, not the whole boat]

[dovehearted]

I'm sorry. I really am. [she doesn't offer anything, because nothing she can do will help, except maybe what she's doing now]

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[feels_no_love]

Lua. [His voice is almost tender with regret.]

I did not wish for you to see me like this. I suppose it speaks well of me that I can care for someone enough now to feel their lack. But ah...emotions are sometimes burdensome things!

Are you all right?

[dovehearted]

Yeah. They were your friends, right? I know what it's like.

[feels_no_love]

They were more than that. Biff talked me out of trying to escape once.