Her first name was India-she was never able to get used to it. It seemed to her that her parents must have been thinking of someone else when they named her. Or were they hoping for some other sort of daughter? As a child she was often on the point of inquiring, but time passed, and she never did ( Read more... )

i believe everything they tell me.

my dad and i are both unhappy. you could say we're in the same boat. no pun intended.

i am an empty box. an empty, empty box. i was not like this an hour ago. an hour ago i had possibilities. an hour ago i was half-full.

something fucking good needs to happen before i blow my brains out.

i was waiting until i got this job to quit myspace. for some reason, i feel like i'm finally able to let go. to let go of a lot- people, idealistic ideas, loneliness ( Read more... )

she's been staring at the screen for thirty minutes ( Read more... )

for some reason i was inspired to update. for those of you who are dying to know what you've missed in the months since my last update, i'll give you a brief synopsis ( Read more... )

i hate learning new things about myself that make me unhappy. i've known all along, but i've tried to supress it. all these old,wise people tell me how hard it'll be for me later on in life because of it, and i've tried not to let it get to me. but i think they could be right, and even if grayson says they're wrong, i think she knows deep down that ( Read more... )

friday ( Read more... )

i hate feeling awkward. like, when you first meet someone, and you're trying to get to know them, and they give you "one-word" answers when you ask them something. and you know they don't NOT like, you... but you also don't know if they like you. and eventually, you start feeling like a psychiatrist because you keep asking them things, hoping ( Read more... )

things i want ( Read more... )

no one knows i have one of these things. its kinda neat. i feel like writing a poem or giving away a deep dark secret, just because no one will ever see it... until i post a link to this shit in my profile... in which case everyone will see it and i will no longer have a secret livejournal and a deep dark secret. secrets are fun. everyone should ( Read more... )