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I feel like I am finally beginning to put in the kind of work and effort into school that I want to. I say "beginning to" because there is always room for improvement and I also think that in order to put in the kind of work I really want to I would have to do almost nothing else. regardless, I want to continue pushing and putting more into it, because it's absolutely true that you get out what you put in, and knowing that I can be better if I just work hard enough is tremendous motivation.
The realization that I am not only doing well in school, but I am working hard to do well makes me really proud of myself. In high school I often felt like when I got good grades I didn't really deserve them (even though I hate the grading system and think it's not productive or informative) because I didn't do jack shit for them. College is challenging and that's exciting.
I also find it amzing how much of a difference it makes for me to be at art school, studying something I am excited and passionate about. This may sound obvious to the point of being silly, but it's true, and I think it's amazing. I am interested in liberal arts, I enjoy math, science, english, and just learning in general, but this is what I love to do, and to be able to study it, and have it taken seriously is wonderful. When I think about how JDS treats the arts - and probably most public schools and just the public in general - it makes me so mad/sad. Remembering how every time I went to talk to a college councelor at my school I was strongly discouraged from looking at art schools and told to look into a "real" or general liberal arts school if I didn't know what I wanted to study (umm... hello? I do know! It's ART!) and to think that if I had listened I would be missing out on what I think has been the best institutionalized educational experience I have had in my entire life, it's kind of frightening in a way.
I kind of want to get into my frustrations with how art as a craft/profession is percieved and all that but seriously, I have class in two hours and I need some sleep. So maybe I will write about it later. for now, we will keep this post pretty posi... so.... yay enjoying school (even if/because it kicks my butt)!
The realization that I am not only doing well in school, but I am working hard to do well makes me really proud of myself. In high school I often felt like when I got good grades I didn't really deserve them (even though I hate the grading system and think it's not productive or informative) because I didn't do jack shit for them. College is challenging and that's exciting.
I also find it amzing how much of a difference it makes for me to be at art school, studying something I am excited and passionate about. This may sound obvious to the point of being silly, but it's true, and I think it's amazing. I am interested in liberal arts, I enjoy math, science, english, and just learning in general, but this is what I love to do, and to be able to study it, and have it taken seriously is wonderful. When I think about how JDS treats the arts - and probably most public schools and just the public in general - it makes me so mad/sad. Remembering how every time I went to talk to a college councelor at my school I was strongly discouraged from looking at art schools and told to look into a "real" or general liberal arts school if I didn't know what I wanted to study (umm... hello? I do know! It's ART!) and to think that if I had listened I would be missing out on what I think has been the best institutionalized educational experience I have had in my entire life, it's kind of frightening in a way.
I kind of want to get into my frustrations with how art as a craft/profession is percieved and all that but seriously, I have class in two hours and I need some sleep. So maybe I will write about it later. for now, we will keep this post pretty posi... so.... yay enjoying school (even if/because it kicks my butt)!