i've lost myself while finding myself....
i seem to have lost myself.... i think back to 6 months ago and i've come to realize that that person i used to be is gone... i've completely changed.... everyone down in san jose remembers me being a guy that was always looking for a relationship... remembers me putting the relationships i went into all that i cared about. they probably remember atleast one job that i called in sick to just cuz i didn't feel like going.... and they prob remember that i spent my money on whatever and never really saved it for anything... that guy seems to be gone... now i don't have any thoughts on relationships other than i'm not interested in one until after i get out on my own and make it.... i'm saving money like a pack-rat and the most important thing to me right now is my job... i make good money and will have my own place by september.... i am also in the proces of building a new computer. one , in which i have seaved the money up for the parts myself.... all while paying off my debt to my parents. it seems like every part of me has changed leately.... i don't hang out with anyone anymore.... hell i only talk to a few people now.... my life is a lot quieter and a whole hell of a lot less drama.... actually i'd say the only drama going on right now is the stuff going on in my own family.... my life ig good now.... i'm not stressing about anything or anyone and i'm living it for me.... for once... i can say i'm happy with everything.... well, i gtg... late