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i wonder if it ever will... i wonder if it's going to be like this for the rest of my life...hmmmmmm...
anyway, so here's a mental picture...i have 2 HUGE blisters on my fingers, i smell like a barn, my legs muscles are really tired, i have some sunburn and i'm completely exhausted. and the best part? i'm so incredibly happy about it all:-D! today, i jumped my friend kelly's horse. it was the first time that i've jumped in about 2 years. now i remember why i donated every weekend of my summers to horseshowing... this is where my biggest passion lies. this is what i'm meant to do... maybe. it's one of the only things where i'm naturally gifted. i just belong on the back of a horse... in kiy's words. after i rode (and was in esctacy) for about 2 hours, i went over to give a little girl a lesson on my pony. i'm so happy that Allante is being used again. this girl's horse that she was going to bring to Fair died last wednesday! so we volunteered our little girl to her to use. you should've seen the looks on their faces when we pulled up with the trailer. it was most blessed sight i've seen in a long time. her grandmother just wouldn't stop with the "well aren't you an angel for doing this" and the "this pony is adorable!" and the "i just can't believe that you would do this for us". i was just happy to see someone enjoying Allante like i have. and...... she's paying me for it all!!! that's just like the parmesean cheese on the spaghetti. :) i'm so happy:)
my dad and i have been hanging out recently... all is good:)
i read my bible this afternoon. it was refreshing. i was just laying around, relaxing from work, and trying to find something to read while i waited for Will and Grace to be on tv. then i thought...why not the book that holds a lot of answers to my questions? so i got really into it, reading about why Jesus came to earth when he did and about John the Baptist. and i didn't even want to watch Will and Grace! i was so immersed in it. it was nice... of course then i took a nap and my dream kinda cancelled out the pure reading that i'd just done. (sometimes i wonder if subconsciously, i just want to torture myself. i keep having those dreams! and waking up all warm, out of breath with my heart pounding... GOSH! *frustrated*)
i'm not sure if it's the time of night or the fact that i've been busy all day today, but i feel unconsolably lonely. like there's this empty part in my heart that just refuses to be filled.
i wish i could understand well enough to write about it...
other than that. i've had a wonderful day:)
much love forever and ever,
Tigress
anyway, so here's a mental picture...i have 2 HUGE blisters on my fingers, i smell like a barn, my legs muscles are really tired, i have some sunburn and i'm completely exhausted. and the best part? i'm so incredibly happy about it all:-D! today, i jumped my friend kelly's horse. it was the first time that i've jumped in about 2 years. now i remember why i donated every weekend of my summers to horseshowing... this is where my biggest passion lies. this is what i'm meant to do... maybe. it's one of the only things where i'm naturally gifted. i just belong on the back of a horse... in kiy's words. after i rode (and was in esctacy) for about 2 hours, i went over to give a little girl a lesson on my pony. i'm so happy that Allante is being used again. this girl's horse that she was going to bring to Fair died last wednesday! so we volunteered our little girl to her to use. you should've seen the looks on their faces when we pulled up with the trailer. it was most blessed sight i've seen in a long time. her grandmother just wouldn't stop with the "well aren't you an angel for doing this" and the "this pony is adorable!" and the "i just can't believe that you would do this for us". i was just happy to see someone enjoying Allante like i have. and...... she's paying me for it all!!! that's just like the parmesean cheese on the spaghetti. :) i'm so happy:)
my dad and i have been hanging out recently... all is good:)
i read my bible this afternoon. it was refreshing. i was just laying around, relaxing from work, and trying to find something to read while i waited for Will and Grace to be on tv. then i thought...why not the book that holds a lot of answers to my questions? so i got really into it, reading about why Jesus came to earth when he did and about John the Baptist. and i didn't even want to watch Will and Grace! i was so immersed in it. it was nice... of course then i took a nap and my dream kinda cancelled out the pure reading that i'd just done. (sometimes i wonder if subconsciously, i just want to torture myself. i keep having those dreams! and waking up all warm, out of breath with my heart pounding... GOSH! *frustrated*)
i'm not sure if it's the time of night or the fact that i've been busy all day today, but i feel unconsolably lonely. like there's this empty part in my heart that just refuses to be filled.
i wish i could understand well enough to write about it...
other than that. i've had a wonderful day:)
much love forever and ever,
Tigress