Lost again to my own emotions...
.......Fuck men...
We work ten hours days...come home and he's on the computor, or playing a game. I hate what I am turning into. My grandmother looked at me the other day...."Now Sarah...don't you ever get pregnant before you get married." Ha, marriage. There's a fucking joke. Fuck marriage dude...Why get hitched to a guy to be used as nothing more then the weekly lay while he's banging god know how many other girls? I refuse to have a mans children so they can watch as mommy goes crazy.
Ha, at the rate I'm going.....I'll be back in the looney bin by christmas.
Jessi saw my protecter yesterday...I didn't see him though. I never see him. I never see my fae anymore. I'm loosing more faith in myself everything everyday. I hate this. Why am I letting this happen to me?
I'm stopping it....tonight. No more. I'm telling him that I have a boyfriend.
Maybe he'll be gone soon? God I can only hope....I can't take this anymore. I just can't do it anymore. I'm not his whore. I'm no one's whore. If I am anyones toy, it's the juggalo boy in denver. He's got my permission to toy with me. Juggalo's get such bad raps....but he's so sweet. He cares about people. Almost all juggalo's do. Which is why i am damn fuckin proud to be a juggalette. Mad mother fuckin klown love all....Hommies will never leave you alone....unlike the rest of the people out there....How many of you that used to be around are still here huh? You all got my numbers, you got my e-mail, you know where I work....I don't know where you all went....Some of you I ain't even sure if I wanna know where you went. To those of you that do worry...
Don't worry, I'm a big girl now. I got a job....I got a wonderful roommate who has a beautiful little girl. The other one's gonn be gone soon...hopefully. But either way...I'm gonna be okay. I hope. Call me sometime guys....I'm here, still breathin. sorta. lol.
I'll be around kids. See ya soon.
Meow...
mmfkl all!
Minx
We work ten hours days...come home and he's on the computor, or playing a game. I hate what I am turning into. My grandmother looked at me the other day...."Now Sarah...don't you ever get pregnant before you get married." Ha, marriage. There's a fucking joke. Fuck marriage dude...Why get hitched to a guy to be used as nothing more then the weekly lay while he's banging god know how many other girls? I refuse to have a mans children so they can watch as mommy goes crazy.
Ha, at the rate I'm going.....I'll be back in the looney bin by christmas.
Jessi saw my protecter yesterday...I didn't see him though. I never see him. I never see my fae anymore. I'm loosing more faith in myself everything everyday. I hate this. Why am I letting this happen to me?
I'm stopping it....tonight. No more. I'm telling him that I have a boyfriend.
Maybe he'll be gone soon? God I can only hope....I can't take this anymore. I just can't do it anymore. I'm not his whore. I'm no one's whore. If I am anyones toy, it's the juggalo boy in denver. He's got my permission to toy with me. Juggalo's get such bad raps....but he's so sweet. He cares about people. Almost all juggalo's do. Which is why i am damn fuckin proud to be a juggalette. Mad mother fuckin klown love all....Hommies will never leave you alone....unlike the rest of the people out there....How many of you that used to be around are still here huh? You all got my numbers, you got my e-mail, you know where I work....I don't know where you all went....Some of you I ain't even sure if I wanna know where you went. To those of you that do worry...
Don't worry, I'm a big girl now. I got a job....I got a wonderful roommate who has a beautiful little girl. The other one's gonn be gone soon...hopefully. But either way...I'm gonna be okay. I hope. Call me sometime guys....I'm here, still breathin. sorta. lol.
I'll be around kids. See ya soon.
Meow...
mmfkl all!
Minx