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so...i just...i don't understand myself. i don't understand myself and why i always allow things to become bad. i know it's going to end badly, i know it's going to end. because i, YES I, constantly fuck myself over. and i don't understand why. maybe i'm just having these feelings because i'm pmsing...i'm not sure. but i just don't get it. i want things to go well. i want things to be good and happy and go yippy skippy off with the damn bunnies. but for some reason or another i can't just open my god damn mouth and communicate how i feel and what bothers me and why and everything. just everything.