i am not having a good day.  i'm tired and i just discovered that the 10:00 class i've been going to all week, i don't even have.  i'm scheduled for that class at 1, and i haven't been going to that.  so fuck.  but i'll probably be ok...i hope.  all this school is making me so tired.  and i just want to go home and snuggle up with curtis and sleep ( Read more... )

as i was driving in today you could see the fog in the distance.  i thought, "finally rain."  it was nice and cool all moring, or at least comfortable enough that i didn't break a sweat walking to my classes.  
lunch time came and so did the damn sun.  and now it's hot and my ma's portfolio broke and my eyes hurt and i need sleep and i want to go ( Read more... )

the tree grows strong ( Read more... )

well-i have not written in this thing in an extremely long time.  curtis and i are finally at the beach and it's pretty windy, but we are going swimming despite that.  thank god we are here, i've been wanting to see the ocean and swim again for a really long time.   and i don't have to work for a whole week. not that work is that stressful, but i ( Read more... )

sailor ( Read more... )

ok...why the hell are the librarians at williams such bitches? why? don't they want people to read? i mean what the hell do you become a librarian for if you don't want them to read. i don't understand. today i went into the library to do nothing other than read. and i had a pass mind you. so i sat on the window sill, which i guess is what ( Read more... )

so last night i had a dream that people were going away for college and i was telling them goodbye. we had just graduated, but i was telling people who already graduated goodbye too...it was kind of weird. i hugged nasir goodbye for a long time and started crying because i guess i thought about hurting him or something...because apparently i had ( Read more... )

so everything is normal. i guess everything is in it's right place. i don't feel abandoned by my friends anymore...and i think i'm happy. or at least satisfied. i don't really feel like i'm going anywhere, and i'm trying not to think about what's going to happen to me after school. i mean...i have plans and everything, i'm just scared. you ( Read more... )

so today i'm bored again...and i've been looking at people's journals...and feeling really sad. i feel like i'm losing everyone. and i know it's partly my fault. but i feel like my friends don't even care about me anymore. like they don't want to hang out anymore. and i know that's probably not true...but why do always have to call people, why ( Read more... )

so i'm listening to radiohead right now...and i was listening to this song-release me-and thinking about how crazy their lyrics sound sometimes. "cut the kids in half, cut the kids in half, cut the kids in half". i wonder if they ever just kind of thought about...wow what if someone took that literally. althought i doubt they really cared that ( Read more... )