Feb 04, 2004 00:08
I'm losing my mind. I think I'm going crazy.
I've seen too many movies, it's very rude to discuss this, I'm faking it..
I'm faking it.
bright and dark
Alternately sensible and violent, open and deceitful, clear-headed and confused.
I just think it's true. And I'm frightened.
Shake down you make me break.
I count less than almost anyone else in this story.
I'm the same as everyone else, aren't I? I'm sure everyone thinks this at one point or another, it's completely normal.
bright and dark
I'm so tired, I should sleep sometime.
I want to save the world. Don't think it sounds dumb, although of course it does, but why shouldn't I want to? I think I should recycle more often or make some money and give it to a charity. There's starving children and I don't want to pray for snow days anymore.
Why don't I make sense anymore?
None of my friends have really changed, have they? It's me and I've been blaming them. That's so rude. I want to talk to them. I want to talk to Gabie, Rachel, and Ali. Don't take that as in that order, does everything have to be a competition? I just want to talk to that best friend of mine who loves me and really cares. They're my favorite.
I'm so sleepy. Really I am.
I miss you, you were my best friend. What's different? I want to know and I want to go back. I can't go on like this.
bright and dark, on and off, up and down
I want to go to Columbia. No exploring other options for me. I've planned on becoming a criminal defense attorney. That's the one that defends the criminal, isn't it? The one that works so hard to keep them out of jail, even though they've usually committed that crime. I don't want to let the bad guys go..
Well then Espee, as McCatt would say.
Forget it, silly. I don't care. I'll always be carefree. I get along a lot better with everyone when I am. I'm happy. Always happy.
So tired..
I don't want to give up. Ever.
Stop pulling me under. I'm not going down with you. But I want to...
WELL THEN ESPEE.
Make up your mind, bright and dark, pick one and live your life.