I miss those blue eyes, how you kiss me at night, I miss the way we sleep...
I have been through a whirlwind of stuff...its been a crazy crazy weekend though but lets begin with the drama and then get to the fun stuff?
a couple weeks ago i was at brendans and we decided to go to ikea together because he had some things he wanted to get and i thought why not go along for the fun...i love going to ikea! anyway i get to his house on saturday at like 3ish and my intentions were to sleep over if he asked me...well the total opposite happened...we always argue when it comes time for me to go cause he wants me to walk out the back door due to his laziness not wanting to get out of bed and i always want him to walk me out the front because its closer to my car. well that night we were sitting in the living room for a while then he mentioned going to lie down and i told him "why dont you just let me out now so we dont fight about me leaving out the back or front later" he goes no no come lie down ill walk you out i swear. well long story short i decide to test this matter...sure enough he responds with "just leave out the back why are you so demanding" i lose it...i was like "why didnt you just let me out earlier then before this fight even happened?!?!??" well to sum it up, i ot up and said "im going to leave out the front and it will remain unlocked behind me....whenever you get up off your lazy ass you can go lock it" he responds with "wowww why do you have to be so gay about this" and i respond with a simple "um fuck you" he goes "thats a mature response!" i go "after being called gay...im really trying to up my maturity for you here...sleep well have a goodnight =)" and i leave, close the door behind me, grab my shit from the living room and leave out the front, door left unlocked behind me.
i figured i wouldnt hear from him for a while...i heard from him that night askign if i was going over but i was in ottawa so i said "im in ottawa but if we hang out i wanna go out for a coffee or drink someplace" he goes ok cool let me know when you get back.
11:15 comes around and im still in ottawa so i text him "im still in ottawa dont know when ill be getting back" and he writes "wow" i write back "wow?" andddd get nothing...so i left it. didnt hear from him alll week. i texted him friday saying "hey" got nothing and then i texted him sunday saying "coffee?" got nothing. so i was PISSED...
monday i get a text from him saying "i really want a back rub can you come over??" i was thinking wtf do i look like in my head but decided to have fun and wrote back "yes dear" and went out with my friends. he called me and i told him i wouldnt be able to go over because i had been drinking but that we would hang out throughout the week. well i guess my plan worked cause he texted me wednesday to go over (i didnt) then thursday and i did. on thursday i brought up the fact that i dont like how our friendship has changed. he explains hes too busy to have friends. i leave saying "if you decide you find enough time to have a friend, call me, ill be around"
well friday night i get a text "come over later if you want" andddd saturday another text asking what im doing and if i want to go over im welcomed to. and yet again tonight....another message asking if i wanted to go over.
now on friday i left him with the impression that i was going to be dropped off at his place once i left the party i was at, and really, i wanted to...BUT i ended up meeting this guy there and hooking up with him in the bathroom for a little while....(woooops?)
saturday i was too drunk to go over as well and my best friend was driving and i knew she wouldnt drop me off there because shes not impressed with him lol.
I am actually FINE with him being a dick so long as i hear from him. our personalities click yet retract so much. i can spend hours talking to him about nothing which is what i LOVE about our friendship. but we fight like crazy over nothing and somehow, i think i like it. what i DONT like however, is the lack of communication for a full week. it kills me. i dont need or want a relationship out of him right now. i could if we found a happy medium in whatever it is we have going but its a lot of tug of war.
anyway, this song came on last week during our "no talking" time and it made me think of him...
so yes, i went over tonight, argued about the walking me out the front door thing and will NEVER agree on it but i managed to bribe him with a back rub would equal me being walked out the front lol anyway we fell asleep cuddled...i woke up at some point and told him i think i should go and he pulls me in tighter and says not yet i dont want to let you go so soon...then i wake up to him kissing my nose....it makes me weak...eventually we made out again and by 4 i was like i really should go now. so we got up and he walked me out.
i know one day we'll have to discuss this and what it means to him/me but for now im just enjoying it as it is because i get to have my cake and eat it too...and its tastes fantastic!!! lol =X
a couple weeks ago i was at brendans and we decided to go to ikea together because he had some things he wanted to get and i thought why not go along for the fun...i love going to ikea! anyway i get to his house on saturday at like 3ish and my intentions were to sleep over if he asked me...well the total opposite happened...we always argue when it comes time for me to go cause he wants me to walk out the back door due to his laziness not wanting to get out of bed and i always want him to walk me out the front because its closer to my car. well that night we were sitting in the living room for a while then he mentioned going to lie down and i told him "why dont you just let me out now so we dont fight about me leaving out the back or front later" he goes no no come lie down ill walk you out i swear. well long story short i decide to test this matter...sure enough he responds with "just leave out the back why are you so demanding" i lose it...i was like "why didnt you just let me out earlier then before this fight even happened?!?!??" well to sum it up, i ot up and said "im going to leave out the front and it will remain unlocked behind me....whenever you get up off your lazy ass you can go lock it" he responds with "wowww why do you have to be so gay about this" and i respond with a simple "um fuck you" he goes "thats a mature response!" i go "after being called gay...im really trying to up my maturity for you here...sleep well have a goodnight =)" and i leave, close the door behind me, grab my shit from the living room and leave out the front, door left unlocked behind me.
i figured i wouldnt hear from him for a while...i heard from him that night askign if i was going over but i was in ottawa so i said "im in ottawa but if we hang out i wanna go out for a coffee or drink someplace" he goes ok cool let me know when you get back.
11:15 comes around and im still in ottawa so i text him "im still in ottawa dont know when ill be getting back" and he writes "wow" i write back "wow?" andddd get nothing...so i left it. didnt hear from him alll week. i texted him friday saying "hey" got nothing and then i texted him sunday saying "coffee?" got nothing. so i was PISSED...
monday i get a text from him saying "i really want a back rub can you come over??" i was thinking wtf do i look like in my head but decided to have fun and wrote back "yes dear" and went out with my friends. he called me and i told him i wouldnt be able to go over because i had been drinking but that we would hang out throughout the week. well i guess my plan worked cause he texted me wednesday to go over (i didnt) then thursday and i did. on thursday i brought up the fact that i dont like how our friendship has changed. he explains hes too busy to have friends. i leave saying "if you decide you find enough time to have a friend, call me, ill be around"
well friday night i get a text "come over later if you want" andddd saturday another text asking what im doing and if i want to go over im welcomed to. and yet again tonight....another message asking if i wanted to go over.
now on friday i left him with the impression that i was going to be dropped off at his place once i left the party i was at, and really, i wanted to...BUT i ended up meeting this guy there and hooking up with him in the bathroom for a little while....(woooops?)
saturday i was too drunk to go over as well and my best friend was driving and i knew she wouldnt drop me off there because shes not impressed with him lol.
I am actually FINE with him being a dick so long as i hear from him. our personalities click yet retract so much. i can spend hours talking to him about nothing which is what i LOVE about our friendship. but we fight like crazy over nothing and somehow, i think i like it. what i DONT like however, is the lack of communication for a full week. it kills me. i dont need or want a relationship out of him right now. i could if we found a happy medium in whatever it is we have going but its a lot of tug of war.
anyway, this song came on last week during our "no talking" time and it made me think of him...
so yes, i went over tonight, argued about the walking me out the front door thing and will NEVER agree on it but i managed to bribe him with a back rub would equal me being walked out the front lol anyway we fell asleep cuddled...i woke up at some point and told him i think i should go and he pulls me in tighter and says not yet i dont want to let you go so soon...then i wake up to him kissing my nose....it makes me weak...eventually we made out again and by 4 i was like i really should go now. so we got up and he walked me out.
i know one day we'll have to discuss this and what it means to him/me but for now im just enjoying it as it is because i get to have my cake and eat it too...and its tastes fantastic!!! lol =X