In Soviet Russia, cake mixes you!
so. grown up stuff. here goes. i will be living on my own soon. my own place, with my own things. doing things on my own time. finally. me and my cute irish roomie will fit into the one room and pretend it's a dorm and get by. make it work. decorate to make it more comfortable. make it home. a home to relax in, the very thought of that just makes me smile. to not worry about ..getting up in time to leave before i can hear my grandmother bitching about my existence. like today. oy. to sit at the bucks all day with nothing to do because i'm broke. and will remain broke. and tired. for a bed to sleep in and a shower to bathe in. and still be happy and enjoy the time i have left on this earth with the friends i have made. that's what keeps me going. the knowledge that this is it. and it can end at any time ...without warning. none. just like a breeze it's swept away. i don't want to take anything for granted. or not enjoy what's been given to me. yes, it;s difficult to get up in the morning, every morning. to put everything behind me and paste that happy go lucky attitude on. i've transformed that into my natural self. and i am happy. there are things i cannot change. like my family. i wish i could have one to turn to and rely on. but i don't. and i've realized that once i move and take that last step out the door, it will be my last step. and i'm ok with that. finally. it's now a given when it does happen. so back to my tiny studio. it's adorable if you're optimistic and depressingly small for what we'll be paying for it if you know what apartments go for in any other state, like texas. then there's the total and complete bonus if you're as devious and vengeful and...well actually a gemini who's name has been slandered. but first, a back story. a co-worker of mine is the most insecure man i have ever met. quiet and unsure of himself in every way. but once you get to know the guy, hilarious to work with. total prankster. until the day he met his current girlfriend. a psycho bitch my friends and i refer to as vampira. because she is. she' probably pissed because a house fell on her sister, she's that bad. anyway the most important part is that she despises her future neighbors. me and jojo. ha! i cannot wait to see the look on her face. it will reign supreme in awesome-ness! i am only a bitch when you have pushed me over the edge. and when you have attacked my friends. then i go ape shit on your ass. i refuse to put up with petty behavior. it's a thing with me. oy.