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the morning doldrums are fading. the anxiety of everything is subsiding. i'm still busy as a button on a stripper's 501s.
i can't seem to really motivate myself. perhaps it's the drugs leaching out of my system, maybe it's the constant deadlines sucking me dry.
my current plan is to scale down the dfc. scale up my debt. and hope that i can concentrate more on things that are relevant to present and future.
i need a vacation seriously. not to jacksonville, not to someplace for the day, not someplace for the weekend,
i suppose i'm ready for the new year already. although this winter will be a piece of cake compared to last, in so many ways.
i won't freeze my ass off on the scooter, unless i want to.
i won't flounder and bob trying to decide what to do with my life (as much).
i won't sleep on a couch unless i doze off at the tube.
i won't need to make 6 trips to the dentist for a root canal, 4 wisdom teeth extracted, a crown, and 2 fillings.
i won't let the dfc get to me.
i won't age a decade in a day.
i won't be the walking dead.
man, last year really did suck, but sometimes you've got to see things from a different place.
well i'm in a different place now. although i'm still far to near to where i was, for my liking anyways. it's all a process, oxygen comes in co2 goes out. just keep breathing kiddo.
the sun slowly creeps into the darkness of night. indiscernible at first, but before you know it you need shade. i've no need of a parasol, just a solar panel to soak it all up.
yeehaa
i can't seem to really motivate myself. perhaps it's the drugs leaching out of my system, maybe it's the constant deadlines sucking me dry.
my current plan is to scale down the dfc. scale up my debt. and hope that i can concentrate more on things that are relevant to present and future.
i need a vacation seriously. not to jacksonville, not to someplace for the day, not someplace for the weekend,
i suppose i'm ready for the new year already. although this winter will be a piece of cake compared to last, in so many ways.
i won't freeze my ass off on the scooter, unless i want to.
i won't flounder and bob trying to decide what to do with my life (as much).
i won't sleep on a couch unless i doze off at the tube.
i won't need to make 6 trips to the dentist for a root canal, 4 wisdom teeth extracted, a crown, and 2 fillings.
i won't let the dfc get to me.
i won't age a decade in a day.
i won't be the walking dead.
man, last year really did suck, but sometimes you've got to see things from a different place.
well i'm in a different place now. although i'm still far to near to where i was, for my liking anyways. it's all a process, oxygen comes in co2 goes out. just keep breathing kiddo.
the sun slowly creeps into the darkness of night. indiscernible at first, but before you know it you need shade. i've no need of a parasol, just a solar panel to soak it all up.
yeehaa