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I'm still sad...i think garrett has already started seeing someone new, his away message said something about an Alina person which i'm assuming is a girl...i nearly threw up when i read this but then i proceeded to starting to cry. I stopped crying for the moment. I really cared about this guy and still love the guy. Its so hard to not think about him. When i got my haircut yesterday it looked so cool and i wanted to show it to him when i was at his house hanging out with his sister but i know i'd get all emotional and start crying around him if i saw him. God i thought this would be easy to just move on from him but it's not going to be easy at all and i miss him. I know i should be strong but it's hard to be strong, i've been strong all the time and i can't hold it in very well right now. Hopefully i'll soon be able to stop driving myself crazy over what i did wrong and wonder if i didn't please him enough? or wasn't the best i could've been for him. I just really hope that he'll be my friend, he says he really cares for me and i know he means that so i hopefully we can hang out sometime. I'm going to now try hard and not cry myself to sleep tonight cause i need some sleep.