Day 1 in Calgary
I don't know if this can really be called day 1 considering I just arrived late afternoon but I'm going with it. I mean, overall, it was a good flight. I had much time beforehand I just walked around for an hour. We boarded, again easy and up, settled in but the descent, as always, was horrible. Just too much altitude change in a short time but the long wait to get off settled me. Customs was mostly fine until they started asking questions. The minute I said it was personal, it started going sour. Then he asked about my employment and I had to admit I was unemployed. It didn't help I admitted I might want to live here in the future but I had to meet another officer and convince him I wasn't going to look for work illegally. Apparently lots of people do this. Honestly, I was being honest so something like this wouldn't happen. I fully 100% plan to return to Denver and move here the legal way, months from now, maybe years. So I didn't feel all that welcome yet.
The bus kind of worked. I spent too much money on 90 minutes but the machine was hard to use and I didn't want to wait another 30 mins. He successfully guided me to the c-train and after consulting the display, it was easy. Finding the house was hard but dragging a flimsy suitcase after me wasn't that great either. Now I know where it is, I'll be fine. Get lost once and I learn. The room is nice, basic really. It's been a while since I have had to share a bathroom but I'll get over it. The host is really nice and even invited me to dinner. It was good to eat and easy conversation to get over my nerves. I still don't know if this was a good idea but I paid the money and I'm not wasting it. I knew I was taking a risk but the fear and insecurity was more than I expected. I was seconds from a panic attack. Maybe the whole idea that you travel with someone is solid advice after all. I just don't know anyone who would do this so it was natural to go alone.
Tomorrow will tell if this was a good idea. Hopefully a little more familiarity will help me get over this fear to leave the house. Maybe this will honestly be a good idea but right now, all I want to do is be home, in Denver, in what I know so much it's natural. I just feel so scared and alone.
The bus kind of worked. I spent too much money on 90 minutes but the machine was hard to use and I didn't want to wait another 30 mins. He successfully guided me to the c-train and after consulting the display, it was easy. Finding the house was hard but dragging a flimsy suitcase after me wasn't that great either. Now I know where it is, I'll be fine. Get lost once and I learn. The room is nice, basic really. It's been a while since I have had to share a bathroom but I'll get over it. The host is really nice and even invited me to dinner. It was good to eat and easy conversation to get over my nerves. I still don't know if this was a good idea but I paid the money and I'm not wasting it. I knew I was taking a risk but the fear and insecurity was more than I expected. I was seconds from a panic attack. Maybe the whole idea that you travel with someone is solid advice after all. I just don't know anyone who would do this so it was natural to go alone.
Tomorrow will tell if this was a good idea. Hopefully a little more familiarity will help me get over this fear to leave the house. Maybe this will honestly be a good idea but right now, all I want to do is be home, in Denver, in what I know so much it's natural. I just feel so scared and alone.