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Well, I'm happy to report my job is growing on me although I will admit there is a sharp tug of hate-love in it. My boss proves to continue being difficult but I knew that coming in. The week and days before thanksgiving, a huge holiday, proved to be quite the trial though. It's all about learning but as my job ends in a month and I get comfortable, my desire to make this permanent grows. You wouldn't believe my passion behind this non-profit and there's a need and importance in me being there. Failure of other options and just getting sick of this job search helps but that's not the reigning force in my emotions and actions. I know it's part-time and goodness knows, that won't pay my loans, but my supervisor was talking as if I could make it a salary. It won't be great but it'd be better than my meager 1000/month. How much salary I could get will determine if I get an apartment or I continue living with mom and dad.
Honestly, it sounds like I made up my mind but I haven't been offered it permanently nor know if my dad is open to me staying. Sure, this year I made a huge leap by being employed for 10.5 months and having an income, even if it is considered poverty level. I'm getting out of the house more and being more social than I've ever been. You wouldn't believe how more open I am to visitors, on the phone, and striving to make something more of myself. My mom was saying today how much energy I have as I talked about what needed to be done. Truthfully, I don't. I'm tired and sore but I feel needed and have a purpose, which means the world to me. I help others, support my managers, and make a positive notion on my parents through helping and I can even pay a small rent. My mom even discovered how important that was when making pies today. She's open to me staying because of that but my dad is different. I even just paid off one of my private loans and have paid 65% of another one. I feel more like a productive, responsible adult. I'm still lacking in areas but my life is going in a more positive direction. It's dynamic, not static and my basic needs are met. I have more ambitions and goals but they seem more achievable now.
Honestly, it sounds like I made up my mind but I haven't been offered it permanently nor know if my dad is open to me staying. Sure, this year I made a huge leap by being employed for 10.5 months and having an income, even if it is considered poverty level. I'm getting out of the house more and being more social than I've ever been. You wouldn't believe how more open I am to visitors, on the phone, and striving to make something more of myself. My mom was saying today how much energy I have as I talked about what needed to be done. Truthfully, I don't. I'm tired and sore but I feel needed and have a purpose, which means the world to me. I help others, support my managers, and make a positive notion on my parents through helping and I can even pay a small rent. My mom even discovered how important that was when making pies today. She's open to me staying because of that but my dad is different. I even just paid off one of my private loans and have paid 65% of another one. I feel more like a productive, responsible adult. I'm still lacking in areas but my life is going in a more positive direction. It's dynamic, not static and my basic needs are met. I have more ambitions and goals but they seem more achievable now.