i dont fucking get it
Why does it always happen the good ones? there is absolutely no excuse. please read that story. its unpleasant, to say the very least.
i dont really feel like doing this, but its important and needs to be known. this is one of the hardest things ive ever had to go through. i feel so useless and helpless. i just want to be completely numb. its the only way ill be able to help anyone.
im still in shock. i really wanted it all to be a really awful dream. but the more people i hear from, the more i realise that this really happened. i dont understand. i cant comprehend....why something like this would happen to such a wonderful, loving, happy person. im at a loss for things to say. i cant stop shaking. please let this have been a practical joke. please. i swear i will never ask for anything again. the pain is far too much to bear. its so unbelievable. those words..."michelle is dead"....written on the chalkboard...will haunt me for the rest of my life. everytime i close my eyes, its all i see. and her face. her beautiful, smiling face...
leah, my love, words cant describe how much you mean to me. i dont know what i would do if you werent here, literally, by my side. i will be here for you forever, through anything and for anything, no matter what. you are my best friend and i will love you always. thank you so much for being here.
to everyone else who has been here, and to everyone who ever knew Michelle... i am here for all of you, always. This never should have happened. Also, thank you all for your support. It means so much. I cant describe it.
Michelle Knarr, you were an absolutely amazing person. Words and actions just dont seem to add up to what you mean to all of us. You will forever be in all of our hearts, thoughts, and prayers. We love you.
This update is so pathetic. I dont know what to say or do. Why do i keep losing people i care about? Why does this keep happening? And why wasnt more done to prevent this?! Those assholes knew the situation...they fucking knew she was scared... I have never ever felt so much hatred towards anything in my life. Nothing can ever make up for this. I want to see that fucker rot. The death penalty will never be enough.
I wont keep going, my mind is racing with the things i would like to see happen to that disgusting excuse for a human being, and most of you reading this would be scared to know whats going through my mind.
i cant think. i cant type. i cant feel. i dont want to feel. i dont want to cry anymore. im supposed to be the strong one. i need to be here for everyone else who needs me. i dont know how to deal with this. i just.... dont know what to do. there is nothing to do. or say. im so useless.
Michelle, i love you. We all do. Nothing will stop this pain. You were so undeserving of this and i am SO sorry that this happened. i wish there was something more that i could do.