Can you feel the beat with in my heart, can you see my love shine through the dark
I finally heard from Lou. He's in Chi-town til Wednesday. He went to go take of business for his family and that's why he hadn't called. He asked if he sent for me and the boys if we would go with him. I didn't know waht to say but I told him no. I didn't want to tell him I missed him, I almost did but I stopped myself. He kept trying to kept to let out my feelings to him and I refused. But....I do miss him.
Adrian has a gf. I don't know her name but she's ugly and 29. The stupid bitch still lives at home with her mom and Adrian has the balls to say she is more mature than me. Ugh! I was yelling threatning to kick her ass n then Lou made a really good point. If i get into with her, all that is letting Adrian and Lou know that I still care for Adrian. I don't but I still wanted to punch her face in. Lou had a point though so I eased up. I don't want Lou thinking that I'm playing with him.
After finding out about Adrian, I wanted so bad to just to be with someone. Just to show off, but I don't even think I'm ready and it would be wrong for me to use someone and lead them on just for my pleasure. I give their relationship a month or so.
Now that I have the chance, I wanna play around with some heads but then again I don't. Especially with Lou. He is really nice and sweet and cute and he genuinely feels something for me. He understand what im going through so he said he wouldnt push it. But what happens when I'm finally ready for a relationship?? Will he still be around??
I hope everyone enjoys their 4th of July. I have to get ready for a bbq but I wanted to get off what was on my mind. 107 degress ppl!! I better take the sunscreen. eww
peace.
Adrian has a gf. I don't know her name but she's ugly and 29. The stupid bitch still lives at home with her mom and Adrian has the balls to say she is more mature than me. Ugh! I was yelling threatning to kick her ass n then Lou made a really good point. If i get into with her, all that is letting Adrian and Lou know that I still care for Adrian. I don't but I still wanted to punch her face in. Lou had a point though so I eased up. I don't want Lou thinking that I'm playing with him.
After finding out about Adrian, I wanted so bad to just to be with someone. Just to show off, but I don't even think I'm ready and it would be wrong for me to use someone and lead them on just for my pleasure. I give their relationship a month or so.
Now that I have the chance, I wanna play around with some heads but then again I don't. Especially with Lou. He is really nice and sweet and cute and he genuinely feels something for me. He understand what im going through so he said he wouldnt push it. But what happens when I'm finally ready for a relationship?? Will he still be around??
I hope everyone enjoys their 4th of July. I have to get ready for a bbq but I wanted to get off what was on my mind. 107 degress ppl!! I better take the sunscreen. eww
peace.